simply 幸福 21 months and still counting

alrite shall summary what i did pass few days.

due to my house Internet is down and i am just simply lazy,
that the reason that i didnt update my blog, sorry...

yup, been on leave ever since Christmas eve, whahha,
never been so carefree ever since i join the forces...

firstly to say,
brought bed from expo, i should start listening to my baby, haha,
went over to expo see a 900++ bed thought is like very expensive so we cab down to another warehouse that sell furniture at paya lebar, ok , it really waste of trip and time.. arg.. nothing and just expensive. so dont try going to paya lebar 7 storey warehouse that sell furniture..

yup, follow by 2 days sumptuous dinner at baby house , whahahaha..

next, Christmas day celebration at baby red cross house...hum... no comment... haha
and well, i drank during Christmas day,haha, so am i drunk, haha, only like a few cup of the coffee liquor that i cant remember called what le.. but, i just simply love it, even it cause me to itch.. haha, cause i can legally sleep on my baby lap , hahhahahahaa. SHIT, am i dead..

ok, guys.. you all really must watch AVATAR 3D, koaz, damn nice, shall not cap on what happen during the show, cause it really a must watch show.. yup..

Christmas tree
every layer is represent difficulties that we need to overcome,
ever layer mean i am always here to support and comfort every fall so that you are save and sound...
it not mine Christmas tree, it OURS Christmas tree,
i really enjoy myself this few days, i really appreciate every bit and single that you had done for me, i simply just love you.. HAPPY 21 Months .. YEAH....

TLC

Oh no..... my baby is sick,
well, i cannot do anything better than be by yourside when you are sick...
at least when i am by yourside, the water is always full,
there will be me to nag you to sleep,
there will be me to hug you and check your temp...
there will be me to buy food for you when you are hungry.

i simply just love you as a whole,
i love to talk to you too ,
i love it when i am able to tell you how i feel.
i just simply love it..


work
being too tired , every single day, there wil be defect
finish the first defect here come the second one
finish the third defect here come the third one..
wa lau, never ending and i cant get my sleep back.
2 am 4 am , which will the alarm sounded at that time..
(guys, FYI alarm is control by some computer, so if the temp of water level low for some machinery the alarm will sound.)

arggggg, i am tried ...
very tired......

Cooking~~~~

Today Menu

Starter
mushroom soup

main course
Pork chop with Demi Glace
potato with mayo with bacon beads
shrimp with wasupyo

hoho, today is my Chinese birthday
yeah, have mee sua form my mum..
haha, just so love by my parent.
ever year without fail, there will be a heart warming mee sua with 2 eggs.

went to city hall to help my baby to collect her contact lens ,
so so so many, and and and i message the wrong person today .
instead of messaging my baby that i am happy that i have collect her contact lens
i message the seller of the contact lens, haha..
guess they might be thinking , WTH, this guy trying to act cute.. hahaha

anyway, just not to waste the trip to go over to city hall,
i went up to grab myself a cup of starbuck,
while i am proceeding toward to starbuck ,
a young adult came forward to me and ask me do i want to paticipate a survery for a company called DNA in NEW water.
i will be given a 5 dollar cash voucher for that haha, SONG!!!, i want to get a cup of drink and i actually had a 5 dollar voucher haha so all i need is to pay 2.30 for a venti drink haha..
what a good start for my chinese birthday haha..

shall wait for my baby to call me so that we i can fetch her to my hse to have a dinner by chef tan, who is he?
who else will that be other then the person wrtiting and posting this very post.. haha

oh my oh my

You have moved to hall,
guess i really have separation dunno what ,
hum...

just simply love hugging you to sleep,
seeing you sleeping like a pig,
hugging "shaggy"

you speak during your sleep,
it some Chinese words. (hhahhahaha)

yup, finally fixed my bike le.. haha
BOMB, again as normal.**Shhhhhh**
*my baby going to said me, Waste money again" haha"
just cant wait to celebrate Christmas and Christmas day with you.
second Christmas with you le baby,
i want to have to celebrate every single Christmas in my life with you.
HOHOHOHOHOHO......
what will you be getting for me?
haha, stupid where got ask ppl de..

you told me that when you say you dont love me,
it only mean that point of time only,
i always say things that i am not suppose the say,
but i hope you know that it all QI TO HUA,
yup, I LOVE YOU, and i always will forever.... yup yup,

shall wait for your message to tell me LEFT on or RIGHT one
MIssssss~~~~~

to be continue...

ok, while i am typing my last entries, that curry came out from her bathe.. haha
shall continue before i go to work

hum, you told me , "see, you are also important "
wa.... my heart is like...... wa....... ok that is a feeling that i cant explain haha
you told ying ren mum that need to tie me up le,
i am like, TIE TIE TIE TIE, haha, actually even you dont want to tie me up, i will tie my self up , haha

Moving to HALL
hum, baby, u are moving to hall le...
like today... kinda of yi yi bu se even like now,
but i know i can still visit you , haha, go and steal your SUBWAY cookie from your hall room, hahah, Dont care, i will eat up your cookie....

shall applied my leave so that we can go fly kite, cycling and maybe fishing together... yeah....
shal do all the things together..... yup yup, shall not , no i should say do not make any more disappointment to you anymore....

LOVE CURRYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!

okie, this time round no druming from your stomach... haha, **HIDE**

It over but it not an end

finally, Aik Hong and Ying Ren wedding dinner is over,
yeah yeah yeah, even thought i know i didnt really help much,
but, i hope i do help a little, yup...

it not an easy task, alot of hidden work to do,
guess this is a good exprience for me, to get ready my own wedding, yup....
i did learn learn alot of stuff from them.

you just make me feel so so so so love,
CURRY..... KEW!!!!
hahaha, ok you are coming out...

We are loving each other

Gratz to Suzhen and Dao Ming

Gratz to Aik Hong and Ying Ren

Haha, Tell you what, While i am typing this blog
,my baby peilee is deep a sleep,
another secret, her tummy is like druming like crazy,
giving lots of beat !! haha.....
even thought we just had our breakfast, seaweed and Mine Shine(Milk Tea)
haha, MONSTER!!!

Yeah, The words that Aik Hong ahd Yingren said to each other, make me tears,
not really cry. haha, so touching la.

i vow to treat my baby peilee, with the best i can,
i must not make her cry nor sad anymore...
NO MORE!!!!
Thank you baby for the Shirt,pants, watch and Shoes.... basically, the outfit is totally sponsor by my baby, haha.... not the shoes cause i pay you 10 dollar haha..
well, i love them so so so so much... TENG KEW baby......
hope you love the skirt i bought for you too hahaha, even though i just pay.. hahaha,
but, i know you are happy... hehe, cheers...

10 is coming, 我会我会自动.. haha
anyway, this few days i can see my baby is very very very happy..
i really regret not doing alot of things with you baby...
i really haiz...
from today onwards, i will change to be a better man,
a better Boyfriend and a better Husband to be...
well, here is some intresting pic that i took with you...

Our Couple Watch

Mrs and Mr Curry... haha

New Skirt

Family

hum... i just love going out with you all ,
i almost forget the feeling,
like we all used to do,
pulling mum bag, holding her hand..
holding dad strong hand,
kicking and pulling each other,
stomping our feet when we cant get what we want...
losing our way and get lost.
playing the balls at Dohby Ghuat dunno where,
haiz, just love it...
just simply love you guys....
All of you are always the best....





　

啊油

you touch m heart again ,
despite of things happening ,

you told me ,
i must go trought a hard way to learn things ,
who want to lose some one...

i need to do some thing about it ,
i can mend our heart ....

i really feel touch again by your words ......
it really inspire me.....
i am so sorry that i had say some hash words ,

jia you , jia you .... let run together ....compelte our race.....

sensing

i have said in my last blog entry
i have sense some amiss
i need you to tell me
i need you to be open to me
you are not you anymore
you are torturingme

i ask you some question,
you ans me wiredly


i am not sleeping wel last night'
wake up in he middle of the night even thought i slept late
been thinking lot of things ,
do you know ?

you ask me what happen, today morning , i dont know how to say ,
wanted to show you that there are some thing not wrong but my heart feel pain when i see you looking at me
saw your scare on your face make me hurt more....

just hope today we can have a chance to sit down and talk while rushing your brother video...

i love you

i have been waiting for this for a very very long time
hope this is truthfully from the bottom of your heart,
still remember what you have told me, when we are quarreling?
one sentence or words like this, heal everything

nov 09, have three significant meaning,
firstly our 20 months together and still counting..
we have gone through sweet and not forgetting bitter,
of our relationship, thank you baby for tolerating all this while,
from a humble and inmature relationship to mature and trying to get our future right relationship,
planning our next big thing in life. earning more buck,
despite of me being stubbon and childish,
you still accept me in your life, thank you my love
for holding on...

secondly our blogshop isfinally open,
HUAT AH !!!!
finally one bigger step of our life.....hope to earn big buck from that,
xin ku ni le, bao bei,
even thought i had done lots of mess in building the blogshop webpage..

lastly, it my birthday month,
haha.....

i just simply love going out with you,
watching movie holding hand, strolling in the mall,
going back to your old house, waaa... just so love la...
haha.....anyway, to any people who is reading my blog,
please you must catch 2012, that is a real good show...

one lie to cover another..
i know somethings is wrong,
but i dont wish to say out....
just hope you can open to me....

Simple Touch

27 Nov 1986, that the day when I POOP out from my mother womb,
It been 23 years down the road,
It time to think back what have I went through,
What have I done?
What is my next aim/goal in life…?

I don’t need a grand birthday celebration,
And I still can feel the love around,

Families,
Every year, they will not forget to celebrate my B’Day,
Despite with just 1 cake and a few add-on dishes,
I feel love and wanted.
Girlfriend
Even with your exam is on 28 nov,
You still gave your precious time out for me
Have a cake at bakezin instead of Ben and Jerry Cheery gacia
*ok, I am dead if I still complain haha, cause I am the one who wanna to eat the cake… *
Even though you are still feeling jealous about my 21 birthday celebration,
Erhhhhh…. Next year b’day shall give you surprise… !!! hehe….

Not a matter how much cash you put in for a celebration,
It how you appreciate people in life.

Last but not least,
Friends
Thank you guys for all your well wishes
This makes me feel that I still have lot of friends around…

Memories
There are so so so many memories
I just hope that the memories will always stay so so sweet…
As and when, when we wanted to stroll down the memories lane,
The door will always open for us, to feed us with the Sweet, bitter sour memories...

Toilet
You are so excited when you finally found the toilet,
But something very scary happen, it under renovation
That make you need to find another toilet,
But YOUR chocolate is coming out,
Then, there is another toilet,
This time no renovation (chill),
In the greatest relieve you enter to the toilet,
OH no, there leis only 2 cubic but both are not available….
What make matter worst, there is someone waiting outside...
Damn, you started to move left and right,
Thinking of some way to stop ur chocolate from coming out…
Then you started to let people notice that you are outside waiting IMPAITENTLY
Stepping your feet loudly then normal
Coughing loudly
TSK TSK loudly
Then when it your turn to enter,
OH NO…. the last user squads on the toilet sit instead of sitting
If not there is some left over on the sit cover
The worst of all no tap no toilet paper…
Well, I guess that is the worst case scenario
Does any of this thing sound familiar to you..?
haha

With You

I simply just enjoy and love it...




New blogshop desgin had been finalise
it damn beautiful la...

haha

How long can it last,
i really dont know
all i know is i should stop doing stupid things
simple and easy things like
finding something..
simple love... it a normal words but full of definition

need to change my self....
Need to, must to...
cant wait for you to finish your exam,
then we can do lots of things together...
LOVE LOVE..

i love my new window 6.5 looks,
but i hate the internet explorer....

WORK
Sometime i just can't stand some people
it ok if you know alot of things
but the problem is u dont know
please wake up ur F ideal
i am sick and tired of telling you to do things already
You are nthing but a lazy idiot
I just hope that you are reflect what have you done...
argggggg..... FUCK
STOP SHOWING ME THAT FUCKING FACE...

a simple message on my side bar

wow , here a short stories of 1 couple...
haha, they are quarreling,
despite of that, both of them dint want each other to know that they want each other to cheer up,
so the gf tag on the boy friend blog andthe bf tag on the gf blog...
haha, you see' some thing is left to be done that way.
they both know' but they just love it that way.
a secret reader , who silently cheering up each other,
and fyi that the way how their love start too... haha...
sound familiar, not going to eloborate more about that haha...

wow, went over to god dad flower shop,
cause ying ren parent wanted to buy some plant for their house for deco.
haha, 我们骗到了“仙人掌 ”dont know am i write, not a normal one but a catus that is going to boom..
haha, went over to mee pok eating session, waited for half and hour.
so during that time we started chatting, it some time wonderful that people know what i am trying to mean, haha...
the jeans and the white shirt stories... haha..

shopping' waaa.....
who say shopping with gf is not fun,
it damm fun lox,
now i understand why people can swipe their card so happily,
for me because your face is feel so xin fu , haha...
but anyway it buying stuff to work..
any really, you really look very beautiful on all the dress....
click click....

singing song like paparazzi, hero and wu ding,
as usual, you are asking me my hero is wrong.
haha' to be frank , sometime right sometime wrong haha....
singing, wu ding.... play and pause 2 youtuibe clip...haha..
i really didnt know my singing is air come out de..
but, really .... you really sing like me... haha...

i just love it, buying food at the middle of the night' cause my belove hungry monster is hungry,
haha,
i just love it, even thought we had some hipcup but this hipcup will be cure with some small amount of water,
no more hipcup .. hehe

i really didnt know some detail is so important,
i will really look into it....

幸福掌握在你手理....陈毅群...
要珍惜, 要珍惜.....每一天, 每一分, 每一妙.....
不要在做本蛋的事了.....

Chat that does not last

chatting with you doesn't last like last time
with joke and laughter,
message is plain and stern
no more loving message,
no more telling me what is happen around
it becoming from sweet to bitter
no more good night message from you

Love Bridge is full of cobweb
Paint is fading and droping
lang lang and weeds is growing wildly , covering the whole bridge
water become stagnant,
no more colourful butterflies flying around freely
instead it been replace with brown and big moth....
flower had no longer carrying vibrant colour
it's becoming dull and some are dying to get our nutrient.


it been long you ever call me baby
either in message or by calling
no longer honeymoon
do you know?
every time when i am looking through the message that you sent to me
those wonderful and loving message that will make my day.
hurt me so much.

i feel that i am treated a cold shoulder
a cold that can't be explain by words and action
a cold that is so freezing
a cold without any form of weather change
a cold that wont change water to ice

you have been on msn,
but, there is no lovely message from you again
no miss, no love...
i really need all this to nutrient me

what had happen to us,
it doesn't feel the same anymore
i need you to open up to me
i need you to tell me what is going on

tell me, please don't hide from me....

Blood Blood

Hum, it a wonderful thursday,
Get to shop with you.
You look really very beautiful with that skirt.
really it does..
will faster go and get the slipper size ..... hehe' i want i want....

Went over to city plaza to shop with her but end out she only manage to get a skirt only, haiz..
shall save more money for her to open her blogshop,
even though i have so many time constraint,
but financially should be able to help out,
DEC, bonus here we go.... yeah....

today have dinner with my god dad,
sat will have my duty,
hope sun we can donate blood together,
it really additive....
some how, i really enjoy donating blood with you....


i should not have done that,
damn it, i really hate my self...
arggggg...


不要偷吃我的零食哦。。。。。哈哈哈哈哈哈

心还是痛的...

什么事？
i dont know, i didnt recieve you message,
neither any call, i am so desperate for it,
i need a message or a call,
to know you are safe and sound,
not i am paranoid,
i am sure i am not paranoid,
it purely worry....

sometime, i really dont understand is the message for me?
when i read it, my mind will keep on thinking every sec...

riding back home, a long journey cause i always took a route which pass by your house,
so that i am pysically near you,
passing by your school,
always been peeping to the basketball court,
trying to see can i try my luck to spot you,
just wanna look at you,
when is the last time i met you?
sunday isnt it.
when will i be able to see you again, i dont know it myself,

what is our relationship now?
i really need to know?
you called me boyfriend when we having dinner at astro,
are we really one?

我多喜望你别对我那么冷淡.....
我还是一之
爱你的......

Worried~~~

Our message end at 10:42
till now there is no message from you,
i tried calling for 3 times,
no respond...

let me know, please.....
i am very worried about you.....

mirror image

this is the way that you feel,
when i didnt message you,
when i didnt tell you what i m doing,
when i am sailing,
when i dont appreciate things around me.

during our msn chat'
i feel so happy' at least i am able to talk to you'

that is all mirror image of how i treat you,
as i sayin my last post, i deserved all this,
should'nt i look in to mirror early ,
if i have done that, everything would'nt be so nasty.

i wanna to hug you to sleep,

i wanna to be able to kiss you good night,

i wanna to kiss you every morning,

i want to see you doing everything,

i wanna to do every small detail things with you

i wanna you to be the most xin fu woman in the world.


and yeah'
i had a new friend called no one

I rather be your friend

I am going to sail off soon today,
will be back only by wed either night or morning...
but does it matter, since you will not be meeting me,

off and leave has no more value,
4.30 isn't something I am looking forward,
rather it something that I am not looking forward to,
sat and sun is something that just make me daze,
birthday need not to say as you have already mention
that nothing going to happen .

no more lengthy loving night message,
it had already substitute by 2 syllables words,

you asked me, why I sound so sad
I don't know how to reply
guess this is the place that will have all my answer.

no one
no one
no one......

despite saying all this things
I still love you....

call me one more time

it fading away

it been long ever since you call me "baby"
in every message, I am looking forward to open
I know when I open, it going to disappointing...
but, I will always convince my self,
that you are busy.

Flipping my phone every now and then,
no smses
browsing through my hp,
realise that for the past few weeks,
there is'nt your number inside my recieve list...

I am lonely
very lonely,
maybe that the way I am been punish
for i taken too much things for granted
it really a torture....

no name
no misses
no smses life before
I am just feeling damm emo...
maybe this way, you will feel much happier
maybe this way, you will feel that your life is easier
maybe this way, you will not feel unhappy,
maybe this way, your life is more meaningful

i have no right,
to say..
casue every every things started from me...



......

*Sigh*

haiz, i am not inside her Happiness list
hum, seem that she is much more a happy person
with less of my present.

Blog
thoughts that the BF is me, but.......
:(

i know you love me.....:)

sad but happy,
casue i finally get my goodbye kiss from her after 2 week
ok, gotta go to sleep..

P.S: dont eat the whole things at one short hor,
if not 2 kg become 4 kg..
but no worries, cause i will love you even u are a PIG... hehe

Reminder

Went for Tim Sum with Baby family,
Waaa, the Xia Jiang Ji is damn good la,
Gotta bring my family over to Tok Lok at ECP.

i really didn't know that you hate Jiu Cai,
think i really didn't pay attention on you,
That is why you say that i am insensitive.
Teng Kew baby, even thought you hate to eat but you still eat at my house,
teng kew tneg kew.

Went over to MP(marine prade) to find hair straightener cream for Rachel,
haha, it really been a long time that we went for window shopping at marine parade,
but since we cant find it over at MP, we went over to KSC(katong Shopping Centre),
damn it, i just realise that i went to the wrong car park yesterday... haha,
saw a vintage SINTEL motorbike, damn faded paint work, old school lao K type ... haha, once i am able to steal the photo from my baby, i will post it here,hahaha..

riding to car park
it always the same car park,
it always the same head bending movement,
when passing the height limit,

i just miss holding ur hand
while riding bike
i just miss you disturbing my FATS when sitting as a pillion.
i just miss you sleeping on my bike and knock your head on my helmet.
i just miss you hugging me tight tight on my bike...

Where is my good bye kiss,
where where where......
think is lost inside one corner....
must find and give me ok.....

Marriage Marriage


when will we walk down the aisle,
i need 50 k,
i have to do something about it.....
GANBATEI...

It raining ......

Drench and wet...

that is'nt a problem...
hehe, i am as strong as a bull, haha

went dinner with baby,
wow, aston food is really not that bad,
haha,even though the queue is kinda of long ,
we are lucky that we didn't had a late dinner,
casue after we finish our dinner, then queue is x3 longer than the queue we are in.

Cute Cute day, 13 Nov..
haha, went shopping at PS, for all the cute cute stuff,
and i had a cute towel , haha, even thought i keep insisting that i should take the hers towel....haha, casue i found it so love that i am using her towel and she is using mine,haha...But , anyway.. thanks baby... haha
chopstick, laptop bag( lucky casue only last pcs left)beautiful "swee",sticky note from precious thoughts,cup lead, towel, bed sheet fitting and some flies.... Hum....

we went over to precious thoughts hoping to find a bear from me to you...

walking all over PS, i really hate PS layout now, why they can change the location of store so fast, one month here another month there... KOAZ...

well, today having brunch with my baby family at east coast, just hope that it wount rain, get to see her again.... hehe

i am jealous, but what should i do..... haiz...

Your temper is quite hot wor,
i like to see you smile more....
i love you.... my love....

excited

today is the day,
finally I am able to see her,
excited excited

wanted to go winsland conservation house,
but, it under renovation...
haiz, does place really important?
I always think so complicated where it just so simple,
this is why I always spoilt the whole thing....

just hoping today will be fine,
just hope that we will hold hand together,
walk toward our future....

dilemma

I had so many places for fri dinner,
but i dont know which one to choose from...
well, i shall make up my mind the first thing in the morning...

My Left tump hurts,
arg.... what a clumsy me..

2 More day...YEAH!!!
Hope every things just be fine for us..


I had so much things to learn..
Crane: Operating crane ain't a simple task,
so many hand movement, so many level to push...
argggg, i must learn it ...
i must master it...
JIA YUO YI Qun

Baby, I wannna to tell you how much i Miss you...
I wannna to shout out loud how much i love you...
Jia you ok ....
But dont hurt yourself in your sports..
LOVE.....

For 3 days,
i haven seen you once,
what are you doing?
it always the question that i am asking my self..
how do you react when you see my message..
i need you....

1 Corinthians 10:13
There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

too quiet

practically I can throw my handphone away,
it just too quiet,
there is no other function other then my htcphone, cause there is a data sim
, for me to use my rss reader to refresh again and again on your blog, knowing what happen in your life lately,
I need you to flood my phone, my life with all the wonderful messages,
they really make my day, it will keep me smile.
with your cutness and care, my day will be full of energy.

As usual I am excited to meet you , this feeling come ever since I first met you
, but, I am scare too,
I scare I can't make it on time,
I don't want to disappoint you, cause I suddenly need to go for overnight sailing on thursday.
just hoping that every things will just run smoothly and I will be back on fri morning... haiz....
biscally, I just need you in my life.
I really misses you alot, please come back to me.
I am hoping that you are seeing my blog.

do you still love me?
do you miss me?
will it be difficult for you not to sms and call me?
I want to talk to you ,
I don't know the answer.
I want to ask so many question,
I need to see you,
I want to hug you telling you every things is alrite.
I wanna to tuck you to sleep at night,
I want to say good morning to you,
I want to say good night and see you at love bridge.
I want to disturb you when you say u are hungry, and eventually get you your food,
I want to see and hear you saying you love me, telling me that you want to be with me forever.
but, if I were to, will you be turn off by me.

just wanna to hear you saying I love you...

I no longer look forward sat nor sun
neither do I looking forward my off day.
I want to go oversea with you,
I still had 5 days leave, I don't want to take leave sit my self in front of my computer refreshing your blog every now and then. I want to spend time with you, but I need to know if are able to too.
I really don't know what goal do I have, ever since we didn't meet.
I had so much time in the past and why didn't I use it,
when every things is going down hill, I start to regret this and that,
what the use?
fuck, I hate myself.

off day tomorrow what should I do?

bring me to him
make me a better person

It so sad to see you online but cant chat with you..... as what you said, lets give each sometime to cool down, i respect that.

i just can't wait for fri to come....
so i can see you,
have dinner with you....

went over to ECP for WCD.... Good memories keep flashing on my mind.
i really regret not spending my time with you
Why i always treasure things when i am about to lose it.
i have learn to treasure and love things when things are not bad.

finally i had paint my door, after so so so long, didnt realise that the door paint actually turn from white to yellow already, hum...no more masking tape..
and you must be reading it and saying WOW, finally...haha

well, tomorow will be doing my duty

dan dan just called me,
asking me about jac bike thingy,
casue of her road tax and installment,
haiz, going to be poor poor poor again....
shall set aside some money...
like what you always told me,
i should start saving, casue i had too many IN case situation le...
shall go to sleep le, casue had to wake up at 5am...

night night.....
i miss you, i miss sleepy and of course i miss shaggy.....

p.s: anyway about the catus, well i see the condition of the catus already...
try not to water it too much...think, 2 week water once can le
casue it started to rot from the inside..

all i need is a hold of your hand again
let me be your love again. Don't give up, cause i know you are still holding on

i want you to know,
no matter what had happen,
i will always love you,
no matter what.

No matter how you shouted at me,
No matter how you chase me out,
No matter how far you drifted,
No matter what happen,
No matter it past or future..
No matter is near or far..
No matter you are sick,
No matter how you become,
No matter today or tomorrow,
No matter every Hour,Min or Second,
You will be the one who i love.

You will be the only woman that Tan Yi Qun will only love
i shall wait for you,
i shall be there for you,
i shall treasure all the memories,
i shall be the only one who you can rely on,
i shall be the one who support you,
i shall be there to listen to you,
i shall be there one who pick you up if you fall,
i shall be there and i will always be there.....

were as one babe
for a moment in time
and it seemed everlasting
that you would always be mine
now you want to be free
so I’m letting you fly
cause i know in my heart babe
our love will never dieno!you’ll always be a part of me
i’m a part of you indefinitely
girl, don’t you know you can’t escape me
ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
and we’ll linger on
time can’t erase a feeling this strong
no way you’re never gonna shake me
ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
i ain’t gonna cry no
and i won’t beg you to stay
if you’re determined to leave

i will not stand in your way
but inevitably you’ll be back again
cause ya know in your heart babe
our love will never end no
you’ll always be a part of me
i’m part of you indefinitely
don’t you know you can’t escape me
ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
and we’ll linger on
time can’t erase a feeling this strong
no way you’re never gonna shake me
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby

i know that you’ll be back babe

when your days and your nights get a little bit colder ooohhh
i know that,you’ll be right back, baby
oh, baby believe me it’s only a matter of time
of time

you’ll always be a part of me (oooohhhh)
i’m part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
don’t you know you can’t escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby
and we’ll linger on (and we will linger on)
time cant erase a feeling this strong (ohhhh)
no way you’re never gonna shake me (oh baby)
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby

you’ll always be a part of me (yeah yeah oooohhhh)
i’m part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
boy don’t you know you can’t escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby (no no)
and we’ll linger on (you and I will always be)
time cant erase a feeling this strong
no way you’re never gonna shake me (you & I)
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby (you & I)

you and i will always be
no way your never gonna shake me
no way your never gonna shake me
you and i will always be

i will still be your sand
i will never let go...
casue u are my every thing...

There is so much thoughts running through my mind
regret doing every things that make you sad....
not being able to eat well,
cant sleep well,
ok, i am falling sick... that what i am feeling now..

Regret
not company you to your fav lecture
not knowing so much of you
not talking to you and understand you
not sharing my past with you
not giving you ideal when you are shopping
not able to provide you what you need
not showing how much i love you
not showing my present when i am with you
being a BIG fat pig, who sleep in movie ,talking with you
always showing you my tired face
not playing ur fav sport with you
not by your side when u need me the most
not being able to be by your side when you are studying
for making you so lonely
for making you so angry
so many many many things

i just hope every things will be fine after 2 weeks
hope you are still holding on.

Please tell me, i am always here to listen to you, i promise.
i know there are somethings that are troubling you..

at least this is the only place that i am able to tell you how i feel
casue, i dont want you to feel frustrated when i sms or call you....

i am just so scared of losing you...

I never felt so lonely before,
I don't know what was happening,
wondering are you drifting away for me?
tell me about it.....

awaiting for smses once i reach the harbour,
but, once i reach out my phone,
to my saddness no smses.

baby, i misses you alot.
not jealousy but truefully.
how is my baby for the past 4 day?
i just wanna hug you to sleep...

Sunday Routine (SR)

Nthing BUt a Normal SR

What NEXT?

opppsssss, my baby is sleeping so soundly while hugging SHAGGY....
haha, my fault actually,Make her wait for more than 2 hours, SORRY bABY.... think my love will just wake up in the middle of the night, searching for food ,haha , PIG ... hehe

Well, i had a BALU KU on my head thanks the BEER,arg, i am not drinking but thank to the magic of mother nature FOG, difference in temp fog up my glasses.

Sometime i just dont understand some ppl, cant help even a thing, why are there human who is so so so so lazy.... arg...... i simply just fucking hate them.....
While if my baby is reading my blog , she must be smiling and say " you also know,haha, look at the mirror"

YEAH,Happy 19 month ....
wow, Time flies .... 19 month already.....
we had been through thick and thin for this 19 month...
may our love always stay strong....always
i love you....... baby......
you are the one and only in my life,
Thank you for entering in to my life...
you had lighten it up with alot alot of colourful bulb,
brighten me up and shine my way through
be my bulb and i will always be your Electricity..
Giving you power for your rest of ur life....\

And YES, i am poor again....
After paying my road tax and bike insurance
i am legally BROKE.....
still have to borrow money from Baby...
for jac bike and the money i owe chak....
hum ...hum....hum..
what else can i say,
just cant wait for bonus and MAC....
PLEASE I AM TOTALLY BROKE......

hum...
calm sea and bright sun shine again

hump, her reaction actually shock me,
thought she will scream at me,
thought she will just ignore me totally,
thought she will say, Why are you here,

but every things just so different,
must treasure this chance that she had given to me,
hum,can't wait to play elmo light sabare with her after i collect my no.3
anyway, i love you my loveee, thank you so much.....

BIKE
there is road tax,insurance and inspection.
how do i manage to get it all done by 6 nov, haiz, guess have to pray for off
after my duty so that i can get it all done.
700+ for insurance
65+ for road tax
25+ for inspection
haiz, this month really have to eat bread le,
sorry, baby, make you so worry that i have no money to eat,
i am totally sorry, didnt know that there is so many things happening around...

Now i have been BLOCK
my heart had been BLOCK
My soul had been BLOCK
What is it going to be BLOCK..next.....

i am sorry....
what can i do other then saying ....sorry
what will happen if i go inside your ROOM
what will happen if i enter to ur HSE...
what will happen , if i cant convince you ,
what will happen, what will happen,
i really dunno what will happen.

what should i do,
CONFUSE CONFUSE CONFUSE CONFUSE...
PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE
TELL ME WHAT TO DO.......

PLEASE!!!!!!

Tears Rolling Down my Cheek....
i have nthing to say...
i am a failure.....
Everyword you said ...
make my heartach...
i know you wanted to tell me so much about ur meeting and ur training..
but you hesitate and say everything is alright....
i am dumb.....

why can i do what i had said to you.....
what have i contribute to us.
why must i blog when i am sad,
why cant i blog when i am happy with you,
keep all the happy moment with you....
so much why? and i didnt work out to find the answer....

Confuse

I am always confuse about what to do now and next...
why can't it be easy for me,
to understand what to do now and later...
why do i need to care about my ego in front of my love,
when i can actually tell her how i feel straight,
instead of arguing and lead to quarrel,
giving a chance to destroy the relation.
why cant i just give in like how she give in to me,
instead of understand her very well,
i need to rely on the internet(blog),
to know how she feel.

Going oversea to work,
is actually a torture to her,
going off for 14 days,
no one there to comfort her,talk to her,hug her to sleep.
yet, she is so understanding to me,
helping me to pack my stuff ,remind me what have i miss out.
with no words of complaining.
Get my laptop making her travel to and fro,
from west to south, south to west then west to east again.
my heart feel so sore when i know of that ...
i really hate myself, why can't i dote her as much she dote me,
again, no compliant from her....

Going out,
i am always the one who can't make up my mind,
at the end she will always be the one to plan,
other then when we are not together,
i can plan and make her so wonderful like a princess,
what had happen to me.

i should not make her suffer anymore,
she must be a most xin fu Woman on earth
and not the most SAD woman on earth,
how i want her to be my wife,
but, i dont have and $$ to...
i cant give her security already,
i should give her more care and concern...
haiz, i am confuse,
but for sure ,
i know I REALLY LOVE HER....alot
i mean really alot.....


I am VERRRRRRY POOORRRRRRR....

can that person please do something please...
They are trying very hard to earn money already.
you are old enough to support yourself,
dont aim too high when u cant even go half the way,

I need money to pay for internet, televison and telephone
i need money to pay my own handphone bill
i need money for my bike road tax, insurance and inspection,
but i only have 1,100 only,
after deducting i only have less then 100 dollar left.
please do something please,
i want o save up i want to.,.....
please help and not make a burden ....
i am begging you...

Simply Just Love You

Going for BBQ,
Riding Bike Together,
Drinking my Fav Drink "White Chocolate Dream From Coffee Bean"
Playing Game,(really appreciate it my love)
Stroll to jurong Point,

Wow.....
I really wish every day is like this,
I simply just love you,
LOVE LOVE

30th of this month

another marking for our love....

Simply just love you my love.....

Finally~

i manage to tell her....
the big rock finally lift off from my heart,
sorry, baby, i keep you in the dark...
i also dunno why, i did it...
but, sorry & thank you my love....

hum, no more fear of this and that..
why am i so scare,
why cant i be like you,
share everything together...
now i learn my lesson....

woooo,
my knee is killing me,
going to see docter to treat it,
haiz~~

Thank you Baby,
for staying beside me ....

hum, finally ... we had more things to talk about...
we can discuss things and tell each other what happen ...
i have so much things to tell you baby...

hum, didnt know that teacher day is coming ...
just receive a MSN greeting from one of my student from camp...
while i am working as a camp instructor ,which is like 2 yrs ago.
here is the mesage:

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:24 PM):
hello

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:25 PM):
i know that you might wonder who am i and i'm nt surprise !!
I'm Rena Yeo , once during secondary 2 .. i had attend your camp .. which is confidence camp

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:26 PM):
i nv forgotten abt u teaching me a lesson , and i've always regard you and your partner my teacher ..
I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:28 PM):

u had taught me a precious lesson abt having self confidence ~~
i remember u , told me off when i didn't dare to walk on a log without support , only u and a rope holding on to me ..

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:29 PM):
i was there screaming of i wanted to give up ..
and u told me that i did not even try and i was there screaming i dun wan or watever ..

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:30 PM):
although , at that point of time , i was really pissed off bt i did not make any comment bt to walk away for another station ..
it was a game that i nd to climb onto the top of a standing log , hop off it and grab a stick hanging there ..

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:31 PM):
when i reached the top , i once thought of giving up but suddenly ur words was ringing through my head ..
and it give me the courage of not giving up as i wanted to prove to u that i can do it !!

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:32 PM):
and i did , i make it to the last althought i did not able to grab the stick .. when i went back happily to tell u
but u still seem to be pissed off by my action and i think u misunderstood my meaning ..
bt thats not important ..

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:33 PM):
ALL I WANT TO SAY IS THANK YOU !! FOR HELPING ME TO BUILD UP MY CONFIDENCE AND TEACHING ME NOT TO GIVE UP ~~

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:34 PM):
I'LL NEVER FORGET YOUR THIS PRECIOUS LESSON .. P.S : ALTHOUGH SOMETIME I STILL WOULD GIVE UP BUT U INDEED CHANGE MY LIFE ..
ALTHOUGH IS A BIT EARLY BUT ANYWAY , HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY ~~

i have so many many many things to tell you
but will it be let out....

i reallly love you,
i really do.....
but, what happen to us,
haiz........

just hope that we can make it trought
i really have no ideal ....
sigh....

oh no oh no
i cant imagine that i can forget when we actually get together.....
if i were her, i will also get angry and damn sad..
that is why, i cant sleep......

i ...... haiz...... no words can desrible the feeling now....

hum,
back to work, after a week long break....
work is piling up,
manage to clear up somestuff before some ********
lucky, got my baby.... who support me ,
if not i think i will actually break down....
you are the only things that drive me...

Wooooo, Came back from our diving trip already...
hehe, we are certify Recreational Diver le....
Though we can only dive up to 18 meter...haha
Get to see so so so so many ..... Fishes and corals

i still cant believe that i am actually diving in to the sea....
cause inside,it really like a Big Aquarium i mean very very BIG....

What have i done again ......

I reallly hate myself,
why can't i control of what to say,
why can't i just give in ,other then trying to reason

baby, i am sorry...


PS: dont know will you read my blog, but
today you can come for the pool session.
wed can take the threoy test.

really need need you... love love baby....

Yeeppiiiiii....

My baby is coming back from Thailand, hehehe,
going to touch down around 0030 tomorrow morning.....
Going to make her tell me lots of funny things that happen over at Thailand..
hehe....

Just got a new phone, HTC snap, just simply love it... of course i love my baby more....
hehe...... a good high end non camera phone which is somethings just what i need....
going to go off to fetch my baby le... ......

wee~~~

just came back from sailing..

yeah, sat is coming , my baby is coming back from thailand
she should be lugging big and small bag of things she brought from thailaind....

cant book my car lesson , very sad, 7 aug is reaching very very very soon,
and i haven get in to the circuit yet, still have a long way to go....

Somehow, many things is troubling me...
so wish i can say out, but but but....
haiz.........

Finally, i am back to singapore
yeah, finally can see me baby and family...

well, baby, thank you for accepting me in your life.. i really appreciate it...
thank you love love

Finally,
He rest in peace....

He no longer had to suffer....
i will always remember you ....
AH GONG AH MA.....

thanks peilee for being there,
when he is about to go....
when at his funeral
when cremation..thn
when collecting his ash....


thanks you baby, for waking up early in the morning, sleeping late at night..
to wash my family clothes cooking breakfast for me...
being there for me when i really need you the most... thanks you baby.....
i LOVE YOU

Feeling very down...

Grandpa hospitalise...
cant do anythings....
working stress...
sometime i just choose not to talk.....

ARGGGG......change of location..
thanks to some idiot...
who cant control their own urge....
who is old enough...
arg...... DAMNn.... it.....

walking around jurong point spend ,3 hours window shopping at the basement even when my culf get "KUI GOON" yesterday night....

gadget,games ,wired things....reading books......
wa, the technology is too advance wor...

** is not that i dont want to tell you i reach early**

i dont kow why , sometime i really dont know what to say....

haiz..... headach....

ONE NEW MESSAGE FOR YOU....

Finally~~ i am back from 2 days sailing,
damn tired...
But....

I am so excited that my baby is coming from holiday,
yeah....
She is like complaining that the food is not better then the one that i cook and bought for her.... haha....

hehe, yeah yeah yeah,

"yes baby, i will take care of my self...
have already message you"

Cant wait to see you..

Off to work~~~


Cant sleep, tossing here and there....




MIssing her....

read a book and get this quote
"The first trick to happiness is to appreciated what we already got"
-Happiness Now-

Hum, true, Not many people will appreciate what they already got,instead they keep on complain this and that....
Learn to appreciate things around you... then you will be happy...

I have started to appreciate things around me , which include my family , my GF and my friends...Without them , i dont think i will be here typing this Post...
Thank you guys, i know that it hard to be with me, sorry for being so stubborn and inconsiderate at time....


"second day ,i am like losing someone i feel so lonely...,
i totally understand how you feel when i am oversea....,
staying at home ,here in singapore will feel so different
I miss you" Drop me a message"

DAMMMMMMMM IT!!!!!

My $80 Dollar samsung Phone is spoilt,
it barely less then 3 month, ARGGGGGGGGG


gOTTA Sent for repair....
GOD DAMN IT....

wooo.....

my baby should be playing game and chit chatting with her gals...
must enjoy ok?

.....Missing my baby so much already....
Dunno will she be reading my blog over at there..
hum, must upload pic let me see see see ok ????

Love love....

Just came back from my fire fighting training,
Wa, it so so so long ago when i last had my FF training....

Went over to Chong Pang Market to have our lunch,
Memories keep flashing back,
There is where i and her went for our Breakfast,lunch and Dinner....
I miss her so much......

i am real damn stupid

now i understand, why u said i dont care and understand you.....
i am really disappointed with myself , i really disappoint you....
i totally understand how can i lose you , who is so dearly and important to me....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....

Who knows how am i feeling now......

I have not been sleeping for like since yesterday....
today , i dont think i can sleep too.....
HAIZ.....












miss her so much

我现在才了解了，失去以后，才董得珍惜。。。

我后悔了，非常的后悔。。。

如果， 在给我一个机会，我会好好地珍惜你。。。

不让你难过。。

我会爱护你，了解你。。。。。。


我好想你，我爱你。。。。。。

I am going to work, :(
















Just hope that the handphone will just Ring
with your name?








PRAYING.........

No longer hoping to book out,
NOT excited to book out....
Not excited to get OFF....
NOT EXCITED TO DO ANYTHING ANYMORE......




"I MISS YOU"

Last Ride Home...

I know it had been very tough for you this 1 Year 3 month 21 day...
As what you said, "if i love you , i should let you go"
Yes, I love you

For This 1 year Plus , i want you to know that it my happiest days in my life,
i never regret loving you,
i never regret being with you,
what i regret is i never appreciate the chance you had given to me,
i never change....

I am still holding on,
if there is one day, one day...
you said " let me hold your hand"
i will let you hold and let you see a CHANGE JERER...
i am not going to let you down ....
i will be a changed guy,

TILL THE DAY.......

wow, finally come back from sailing...
seasick not that good anyway,

actually nothing to write actuallY,
my baby, is sleeping so soundly haha,
shall join her to la la land too,



ZZzzZZzzZZZzZZzz

this week going to be a very hectic week again....
will go for sailing again ..

"MY HANDPHONE JUST SPOIL,IT BEYOND REAPIR"

that what the nokia service center say to me,
damn sea water, the PCB(print circuit board) just corrode,
just like that, due to seawater or ?????
haiz, that is what baby brought for me ,
haiz, going to buy a new hp,
at the mean time gotta use only samsung c170
that not a handphone for real messaging ,
but it a good phone to pick and hang phone,
hahaha......SORRY....

Dunno , this few days i am feeling damn fuck up,
a little things will make me boil up damm easily,

"happy 13 month ponyo"

For my first time of my life,
i have the worst headache,
after consuming 3 extra strong paracetamol,
there is no help to my headache,

worst, i have to go for my driving lesson in the evening,
time : 0430, i am time at TNB, arggg,
rush to baby house to get helmet,
at the same time rest for 10 min ,
trying to get the headache out , still , no use ....
it still in my head,

arggggg,i dont know what have happen to me,

while waiting for my baby,
i went to draw some cash from ATM machine,
while i am at the first ATM, after queueing for like say 10 min,
there is no more cash to be dispend to me,

arg, it mean i have to walk all the way to another shopping centre ,
so while i am waiting for my turn to draw, there came a lady,
she walk up to me and say in Mandarin

"hello, can you let me draw cash first, i am in a hurry"

in my heart i am like, ok, i dont mind letting you withdrawal first,
but what i said out shock her and shock me as well,

"i also need to draw" <-- in a very very furious and stern attitude

There is def something wrong with me,
i dont know why,
but would it be the headache
or
would it be someother reason

"thank you baby, for taking care of me ....
you are all that i need"

Yeah, i have one new polo-t..
hehe, i am love it so much,
thanks to peilee,

hehe, wow, i am now blogging consecutive for 3 days,
hehe, back to my blogging life,
so that my ponyo will know what happen to me,
no more complaining ,haha, :p

work work work work,
haven gone for my off for 1 month,
tired tired,

going to bathe and take a rest before starting my work again....
YAWN,

"baby, i really love the TOP that you bought for me,
Thank you"

Oh no, 29 July i ahve to go for my oversea attachment..
that mean that i have to get my diving at early july,
have to plan with my ponyo asap, to get the date done,

This month have to save save save le,

Handphone

i can't believe that my handphone fail me,
guess that is because of the heavy downpour today morning on my way to work...
arg, going to 7-11 or petrol kiosk to get a EHM ERM " lousy phone"
going to fix my belove phone which my baby bought for me...

what a lousy day today,

Guitar time while waiting for my baby...

"found BOYBOY le, YEaH!!"

Haven been blogging for so so so so so long...

Baby, keep asking me why i didn't blog...
hum, so now must blog le...
haha...

anyway, past few month fly by so fast....

things are not going right most of the time..
but, still we hold on together..
Thank you baby, for putting so much effort in our relationship....
baby, i know every thing, i understand everything...

Haiz,
been asking around my shipmate,
when u are with your gf, will you feel tired..
all of them give me the same ans...
YES!!!
ask them why, they cant really give the answer..
some give me answer like, Standing under the hot hot sun..
some ppl please really tell me the answer..
PLEASE...
I DONT WANT Z MONSTER ......

Diving trip
Till now i still cant give a date to ponyo,
casue too much sailing
too much duty
i have ask and june should be quite a good one...

Driving
Arg... Till now i only went for first lesson, so damn hard to book my pvt instructor..
arggggg, going to book him for all the weekend that i have shore leave....

WTF is it all about.

baby , i dont really like to be compare . . .
It hurt , when you compare me with the forgien worker. . . .
Baby , i have to close up for duty . . .i have to do my regular maintance to do , which is never ending . . . I have so many things pass down by my senior , which forever cannot be finish . . . I always cant get back my full strength , i need plenty of sleep . . . Esp someone who is so important and play a big part of my life . . . I know you are scare , 4 hour a day of chatting / doing thinis together.
Baby , i really hope you can understand. . .
I know it my fault that i didnt really pei you enough . . . Baby . . Baby , if the problem lies on my tireness then next time , i will stay in camp , to sleep . . . So i will have enough strength to be with you , fully charge . . . Haiz . . .

time's flies....

11 month have past..


we love.....

we miss.....

we quarrel....

we cycle

we joke...

we smile....

we ice skate..

we eat...

we shop....

we hug....

we hold hand....

we sayang each other...

we ride bike...

we fly kite...

we went haw par villa...

we went sentosa...

after reading your blog,
my heart just break in to pieces ,
i dont know what will happen...
i really have no confident,
i am comparing myself to him....
i am losing my faith...
i should have be with you, before him...
but, i am to late....
i should be more sensitive,
i should care about you more..
i should have more initiative to plan...
i should give in to you,
rather than keep quite and hide every things....
i should know more about you,

our stories, should it be a happy ever after?
or
He and she ........

i really dont know...
i am praying that he said NO
i know i am selfish about that,
that cause i love you
i want to be with you forever...


went sailing , been thinking alot of things
been looking at our picture..again again again and again
alot of mermories flash out,
i smile,
i tears,
i scold my self,
.....................................