too quiet

practically I can throw my handphone away,
it just too quiet,
there is no other function other then my htcphone, cause there is a data sim
, for me to use my rss reader to refresh again and again on your blog, knowing what happen in your life lately,
I need you to flood my phone, my life with all the wonderful messages,
they really make my day, it will keep me smile.
with your cutness and care, my day will be full of energy.

As usual I am excited to meet you , this feeling come ever since I first met you
, but, I am scare too,
I scare I can't make it on time,
I don't want to disappoint you, cause I suddenly need to go for overnight sailing on thursday.
just hoping that every things will just run smoothly and I will be back on fri morning... haiz....
biscally, I just need you in my life.
I really misses you alot, please come back to me.
I am hoping that you are seeing my blog.

do you still love me?
do you miss me?
will it be difficult for you not to sms and call me?
I want to talk to you ,
I don't know the answer.
I want to ask so many question,
I need to see you,
I want to hug you telling you every things is alrite.
I wanna to tuck you to sleep at night,
I want to say good morning to you,
I want to say good night and see you at love bridge.
I want to disturb you when you say u are hungry, and eventually get you your food,
I want to see and hear you saying you love me, telling me that you want to be with me forever.
but, if I were to, will you be turn off by me.

just wanna to hear you saying I love you...

I no longer look forward sat nor sun
neither do I looking forward my off day.
I want to go oversea with you,
I still had 5 days leave, I don't want to take leave sit my self in front of my computer refreshing your blog every now and then. I want to spend time with you, but I need to know if are able to too.
I really don't know what goal do I have, ever since we didn't meet.
I had so much time in the past and why didn't I use it,
when every things is going down hill, I start to regret this and that,
what the use?
fuck, I hate myself.

off day tomorrow what should I do?

bring me to him
make me a better person