A new look

A great start,
A new look,
A whole new colour for my blog,
The colour that will make my day always....

Persuading my life

persuading my life
3 more week and i am going diving....
oh ya.... just cant wait for it...

Life

I start to slow things down in my life,
unless i am working..
Things are much more beautiful,
Never knew that...
Flower are much more vibrant,
Bird are much more beautiful,
Human are much more better,

I just love my life now...
The life that i never knew that i can be....

Diving Diving Diving

I am going for my advance Diving on 16 April - 18 April
Wooooooo~~~~
just pay the deposit and that make me feel wooooo la la....
3 tan signing up for diving course..
SHAWN TAN, TERRENCE TAN ,JERER TAN...
actually just wanted to go for my leisure dive,
but since it just 90 dollar extra,
why not go for my advance!!!

Night Dive, Wreck Dive !!
i just cant imagine myself diving,
after getting my advance diving,
i want to go Maldives,
but, that is will be reserve for my future Wife and i honeymoon...

hum, bali and Australia is going to be my next dive site and place
but guess i have to saved alot alot alot for that first before i even start to think about it...
hum.. maybe bali is my next place for me to dive.. haha!!!

I found something to look forward to other then my Class 2A,
i will complete my diving course first, then Class 2A license..
since it before my theory test for class 2A..

Go on yiqun, Jia you yiqun

Glad that you called today,
Dont think too much, at least i know that i am your friend...

Take things slowly

Looking out of my window,
A green Balloon fly up up to the sky,
I wanna grab it, but it just too beautiful,
Too far Too far...
background with a pretty Crescent Moon,
Blue Blue SKY..
It will be carefree without someone,
It will fly high without someone.
Let it FLY, LET it FLY...

i'm looking forward for 30 march 2010
so that i can donate my blood,
for a fresh new start.
i'm looking forward for my diving trip,
so that i can throw all hurtful memories,
to the sea,
DRIFT to South China SEA....
DRIFT to Pacific Ocean,
DRIFT!!!!
i dont want to remember anymore!!!
Drift away away away from me..

Stupid FLU, go away go away go away..

Inch to DEATH

i am lucky i am still alive now,
if not i should be below a sand truck which cut my lane,
i brush through the plant at the side of the road,
and manage to get myself out of the situation.

Guess what, i didnt blame the driver at all,
i blame myself traveling too fast,
120 hum....
it my fault that i didnt high beam the driver,
worse part of all, my bike is small.

BUT still , i am lucky that i am alive typing this blogpost now...
haha...

I am dying from my flu viral......
somebody save me!!!!

I'm in love again

Yeah!!!
i am in love again,
this time round is no other than myself,
i love the changes in me.

i listen to someone,
attentively and wait till he stop,
then i started talking.

I slow down my pace of life,
it true,
i really can see things more clearer and things that i didn't notice in life.
:)

going to keep on going,
Wussssssssh, Jia you jia you jia you!!!!

Changing

It either i change the world
or i change myself
I cant change the world
It is easier to change myself
so i will change myself

I am going for a diving trip at 16 - 18 March
This is the time i go refresh myself,
when i come back from this trip,
i am going to change myself totally

First of all,
Listen to other's needs and wants,
i know that this is gonna take along time,
but if i dont try, it gonna take forever.
so must do it.

secondly,
learn to appreciate things happen around me,
appreciate things and people.
I had not appreciate things around me since i am born,
so i am going to do it too.

thirdly
Dont argue with people,
let people say finish before i start to talk,
it goes back to my first change.

i am going to post all my change in a daily basic,
so my fellow reader, you can tell me.
am i doing the right things.
YESH, gonna to change myself.

oh ya, of course not forgetting to say that i am gonna to save money too
i have only 2k per month,
i cant expect myself to save alot,
so i am gonna start from little,
many little turn to alot.

i bought myself a TATTY BEAR,
so that i can talk to him when i am sad.
Casue he cant talk back too, hehe...
And he really can slow my life down,
i am gonna to slow my life down and appreciate things and people around me.

Bye bye Yiqun
Hello Yiqun

Good Luck

Finally you message me,
All the best for everything in your life.

Thank you for giving me unconditionally love for the past 2 years
really appreciate every small and big things that you had done for me,
all those will be kept inside my heart.

Hope we remain as friends,
maybe not now,
but in the near future!!!

Jia you, good luck!!

HURT AGAIN

If i dont care about you,
Why would i love you at the begining,
and YES, What you say make mye hurlt,
I am really very hurt!!!!

i am at tuas and i forget to bring my key, what is there for me a goody-two-shoes


PLEASE ASK PEOPLE WHAT I TOLD THEM!!!!!!
You didnt clarify, now you put words in my mouth,
but whatever you had say, i still love you

I dont know why are you feeling so FURIOUS about it,
i dont know what you have been through past 6 days,
i guess you are just venting all your anger on me.
if that make you feel better, then good.

i have nothing to say!!!
all i can do is I AM HURT.
we really need to talk, to clear all this misunderstanding,

诺

我答应过你，我不会提出分手。
应为被分手的那个， 会很难受，
我不要在让你受伤心的事，
我不要你在勾住过往。

我干原我伤心。。。
那么你就会快乐。。。。

为何你对我许下承诺

Click here to listen

我不怪你，只能怪我自己没有爱你多一点。。。

也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间

我原谅你

i want to be your NEXT boy friend!!!!!

this is suppose to be in the center of the baby breath.
after reading your last post,

i cried,
i know all those things, i wish i am your next boyfriend,
just to let you know, i throw away the Kinder Bueno cause you throw at me, i am angry i did things that are not suppose to. i am sorry!!!!




I don't like things bought if it can be made.
that why i hardly buy things for you, i rather handmade to you.

I like to paint my own room.
i helped halfway, and i fall asleep. idiot me why i sleep sleep and tired.

I hate to sleep with the fan blowing in my face.
that what i did, i correct it by facing it up so that you wont get to blow it.

And I fall sick easily if I sleep in aircondition.
:( i am sory and love by you. cause you know that i am hot and sweating already. that why you always on a/C for me.

I like to lie on the nape of the shoulders and fall asleep.
i love it when you sleep on my nape even that would cause pain sometime.

I like to be driven around but I fall asleep on moving transport.
yes yes yes, and i always get knock on the head.
i love to drive you around, i feel so loved.
when you tickle my fat tummy....

I don't like to chitchat on the phone. Talk to me in person.
i know, but haiz!!!!

I can't spell in my head, so if need be, spell it s-l-o-w-l-y
WOLS :)

I need sleep when I'm angry or frustrated, so leave me to rest if I say so.
i know it but i alway did another way round to you.

I cry when I watch drama, and I don't like to be disturbed or laugh at. Just watch with me.
That why i alway get tissue or let you wipe on my shirt, but sometime i did disturb you, i admit.

I get hungry at night easily but is always too lazy to get food.
I love you, and i love to get food for you cause you alway so happy and love when eating.

Don't stop me from junking on seaweed and chocolate.
oppsssss

I'm super sensitive to cigarette smell, just admit if you smoked.
i know!! we quarrel because of that a few time.

I wrap myself up in thick blanket even in the afternoon and my hotter my body is, the more comfortably I sleep.
PO PIA!!!!!
soa soa ho liao!!!

I get backaches and sprained necks on soft beds.
i am sorry that i choose that for you, i can correct it. trust me!!

I get cramps during menses and don't like to be ignored.
i am sorry!! i am not there when it really severe, but trust me no more MIA

I prefer salted popcorn but I'll always eat sweet popcorn with you.
i know, we share sweet and salted pop corn together and i simply love it.

I will try to breathe at your pace when I'm lying beside you
like i told you before, i also breathe on your pace but i always get breathless

one step at a time...

What am i going to do about it?

well, guess had to use time to heal things.
time time time, heal everything!!!

since now i had cut my hair,
i actually thought of piercing some part of my body or tattoo to remind myself of things that i had done wrong.

well, at the end, why do i need to?
another why? see, i always thought of why why why?
like asking myself, Why did she do that?
Why did she want to end our close to 2 years relationship?
Why do i always make her angry?
now instead of asking WHY?
i will ask myself , what things had went wrong?
what should i do now?
what should i do to prevent things from happening again?

now get back to topic of what i should do.
get my class 2a license
since my current bike is giving me so much problem and headache,
i am going to upgrade and change bike to cb400 (super 4)
and i can save alot from maintenance.
got speed and NO MORE 2t..... yeah..

save money
for my last 23 years...
i always think, why do i need to save?
use it when i have it, wont it be better?
don't have money then don't spend.
yup, this is really a BIG wrong why and answer that i had given myself.

next slim down, since i had already lose 5kg in 2 days. i am going to hit my own target..
65 kg... yup, FYI, 2 days ago i am 78 now i am 73. The magical power of breaking up.

what do i learn from this?
i learn to be sensitive.
i learn to understand people more.
i learn not to take things for granted.
i learn to knock on people door and wait for people to open.(very rude of me in the past)
i learn to listen to love one needs and wants.
i learn to update my blog when happy and sad.
i learn to schedule my time with my love one.
i learn that bath is action, bathe is the correct word to use.
i learn that many is countable , much is uncountable.
i learn to bring my future love one wherever i go, of course, ask her if she want to join me and my friends.
i learn to treasure every small and big things people had done and helped me.
i learn that 思心 is the key to everything,
as my mum told me. Learn to look at others feeling even though sometime you will feel "wei qu". Don't always think about yourself.
i have learn to control my emotion.
i have learn that DONT be too suspicious.
If i am in doubt, ask?
it never too late to learn things, as long as i willing to change!!!
NO MORE PAST YI QUN
I am looking forward for a future YIQUN
YEAH!!!!

When so many things had gone wrong. i know that i had done something right.

learn to love people around me
even though i learn this from a very very painful and hurtful lesson.
but yes, that is a learning point for me,
yi qun yi qun dont take things for granted anymore....

i know that i cant forget you
i know that i still love you
if one day any day, you were to hold my hand again
i will hold back yours tightly and tell you,
"i am sorry , i love you!!!"


陈毅群，加油！！！

Hurt and sad

Reading your last post,
i don't know what to say,
all i hope is a talk with you,
hope that things wont turn so nasty,
i had create a chance and destroy it,
i never hate you to be with your girls,
my last last post about that is refering to ur new friends.
there is nthing that i can do now,
just hope and pray.
that you will come back to me by my side.

i wanna to be with you,
to fulfil all our promises,
our plan, our future.

what can i do to make you turn around,
what can i do to make you come back to me,
i really do love you....

what can i do to let you know that i am a change man now,
that i can carry you all the way,
no more pain no more sorrow,

2 years relationship just ended like that,
there is no places for me anymore,
there is no one for me anymore......

ｌｏｓｅ 5kg

8 more days to our 2 years
but i had done things that are terribly wrong,
will you forgive me?
will you message me tomorrow after your test?


i am still holding on, hope you are ｔｏｏ

i am changing

Baby, i am showing to you,
i really can change to be a better person,
i am doing my part to change myself,
i hope that you can believe me,

we had been together to almost 2 years,
we had gone through thick and thin together,
i really hope that you wont give us up.

i had enroll my class 2A,
i am showing to you i am not chip chip chip any more.

what have i done

there are so many things that i have done that is irreversible

there is nothing i can do to forgive myself,
i am responsible for all the action,
There is no need to point finger anymore,
i am noting but trouble,
Now i have left a very deep scar on you,
salt have been apply instead of medication
the pain you going through is what i cant describe,

i promise to look after you,
but i fail,
i promise to shower care and concern,
yet i didn't fulfilled,
if time can be turn back,
i wont make you my girl,
cause you had suffer too much really too much with me.

all i can do is to pray,
pray for your health,
pray for your studies,
pray that you will always be happy.

looking back at the footstep,
that i and you have walk,
there is only my footstep left,
under my feet,
you have stop at the junction,
i had miss it,
no way of turning back.

there is so much things that i can make it happen,
but yet, i refuse to.
now i make things happen,
there are not suppose to.
no one force me to,
i choose my own path.

will you walk with me till our road finish?
or
will you spread the road with me and continue our journey?

There is no one who love me like you do,
nobody will replace you in my heart,
cause you are who you are.

Praying

I want to go back to the PAST!!!
from where we met,
cause i want to feel the LOVE
i dont know what can i do anymore....
just have to wait...


Wait for you to cool down,
i know i have done a very very very very terrible mistake!!!
you offer me a melon juice,
you know that is my fav,
yet, i make you angry!!!!
quarrel with you.....
what a damnnnn JERK am i!!!!!

Forgive me!!!
I LOVE YOU

Hurt

i am a jerk!!!!

why i quarrel with her always when it time for her test....
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY, why always had to happen this way.....!!!!


I LOVE HER, more then i love myself....
i am typing this with my tears dropping.....
i hate this way,

if i am given another chance to choose ,
YES, i will still choose you KUA PEI LEE...
but, i know....
she had hated me so badly damn bloody badly.....
i am beaten fallen!!!!
totally CRASH!!!
i need her, i love her!!!!
WTF had i done......
why do i always be like this!!!!!!
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!
all i wan to is to ask her,
WHY CANT I JUST FUCKING LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN!!!!!
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGg

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!

Understand

加油 BABY!!!
for your test.

加油 YIQUN,
for our future！！！

Now i finally understand what is called sensitive

Giving me a photo which is laminated , to prevent it from sticking to the wallet.

that is really thoughtful,

i hope i am not too late to understand,

you have been strain out fro your test and hall event,
worst , we quarrel...
that is the worst thing that can happen.
why am i so so so stupid,
why cant i understand things early?
why am i picking things up to quarrel,
reffering to your last blog post...

"My love language is quality time and touch.
Quality is the word."

i didnt manage to give you quailty time,
i only give you quarrel time and unhappiness time..
it time i really wake myself up,
you are so good to me,
i must treasure you,
must do what i must do!!!

LOVE

What is love?

Love is when

your so called normal friend and you willing to hold hand and step up to the furture together,

your GF willing to travel here and there just to let you rest when you forget to bring your stuff

what ever things is so so so wrong , she willing to forgive you and walk together

you didnt plan and your gf willing to go out for a unplan dating

you have no money , but she is willing to be with you

you are falling sick, there is always someone to rely on

you make her angry, but still she forgive you

she is everything to you

after all had happen, she stand next to you, believe and encourage you

she had to do things alone and will never complain

she know you are tired , she is tired as well, but just wannna tug you to sleep

she massage for you, even when she is very tired

she want to do so so many things with you, but still will be waiting for you to ask.

There is so so so so many things that my baby had done for me, there is so so so many wonderful things that you had done for me.
whats more can i ask for,

i need to make you feel more love,
i must control my temper,
i must understand you more,
i must be more sensitive,
i must dote you more,
i must talk to you more
i must make you feel that i am the one that you can rely on
i should not complain anymore
i must i must i must....

no more chip chip chip,

Baby, i know this feel days you are feeling tired ,
feeling why are we like this,
i am sorry, i am really sorry....

dont feel tired anymore,
i will carry you and take away all your buden....

I LOVE YOU, KUA PEI LEE

P.s: the last post is just what i am always thinking, no offend...

Crazy Mind

I have been thinking Crazily,
Is it a good thing or a bad thing...
Somehow i feel that you have change your attitude toward me,
but with your words, i knew i am thinking wildly

Will a person call someone that really mean something, or mislead things even though he doesnt mean it?
Will a person treat friends like he treat his partner?

This is the second wrost quarrel i had,
why were it always because of some malefriends?
i hate it....
Everytime it make me think wildly :(
it not because i dont trust you,
as i said, i dont trust others.
i just hate to quarrel la,
it fucking sianz..

i want you to feel love,
i want you to love me,
i want you to love me just like last time,
lesser and lesser message le,
i need them....

Trouble ,worry crazy.... Boyfriend

fianlly, i can concule i am CRAZY!!!!

25 more days,
it our 730 days together
17520 hours together
1051200 min spending

wooooooo hooo, guess what,
the pig is still sleeping and she is sleeping soundly....
hum...

i had some wired feeling,
it always happening,
ihatethisfeeling,
ihatetobebetray,

telling things has went wrong better then i anyhow think.......
arggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK