YEAH,Happy 19 month ....
wow, Time flies .... 19 month already.....
we had been through thick and thin for this 19 month...
may our love always stay strong....always
i love you....... baby......
you are the one and only in my life,
Thank you for entering in to my life...
you had lighten it up with alot alot of colourful bulb,
brighten me up and shine my way through
be my bulb and i will always be your Electricity..
Giving you power for your rest of ur life....\

And YES, i am poor again....
After paying my road tax and bike insurance
i am legally BROKE.....
still have to borrow money from Baby...
for jac bike and the money i owe chak....
hum ...hum....hum..
what else can i say,
just cant wait for bonus and MAC....
PLEASE I AM TOTALLY BROKE......

hum...
calm sea and bright sun shine again

hump, her reaction actually shock me,
thought she will scream at me,
thought she will just ignore me totally,
thought she will say, Why are you here,

but every things just so different,
must treasure this chance that she had given to me,
hum,can't wait to play elmo light sabare with her after i collect my no.3
anyway, i love you my loveee, thank you so much.....

BIKE
there is road tax,insurance and inspection.
how do i manage to get it all done by 6 nov, haiz, guess have to pray for off
after my duty so that i can get it all done.
700+ for insurance
65+ for road tax
25+ for inspection
haiz, this month really have to eat bread le,
sorry, baby, make you so worry that i have no money to eat,
i am totally sorry, didnt know that there is so many things happening around...

Now i have been BLOCK
my heart had been BLOCK
My soul had been BLOCK
What is it going to be BLOCK..next.....

i am sorry....
what can i do other then saying ....sorry
what will happen if i go inside your ROOM
what will happen if i enter to ur HSE...
what will happen , if i cant convince you ,
what will happen, what will happen,
i really dunno what will happen.

what should i do,
CONFUSE CONFUSE CONFUSE CONFUSE...
PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE
TELL ME WHAT TO DO.......

PLEASE!!!!!!

Tears Rolling Down my Cheek....
i have nthing to say...
i am a failure.....
Everyword you said ...
make my heartach...
i know you wanted to tell me so much about ur meeting and ur training..
but you hesitate and say everything is alright....
i am dumb.....

why can i do what i had said to you.....
what have i contribute to us.
why must i blog when i am sad,
why cant i blog when i am happy with you,
keep all the happy moment with you....
so much why? and i didnt work out to find the answer....

Confuse

I am always confuse about what to do now and next...
why can't it be easy for me,
to understand what to do now and later...
why do i need to care about my ego in front of my love,
when i can actually tell her how i feel straight,
instead of arguing and lead to quarrel,
giving a chance to destroy the relation.
why cant i just give in like how she give in to me,
instead of understand her very well,
i need to rely on the internet(blog),
to know how she feel.

Going oversea to work,
is actually a torture to her,
going off for 14 days,
no one there to comfort her,talk to her,hug her to sleep.
yet, she is so understanding to me,
helping me to pack my stuff ,remind me what have i miss out.
with no words of complaining.
Get my laptop making her travel to and fro,
from west to south, south to west then west to east again.
my heart feel so sore when i know of that ...
i really hate myself, why can't i dote her as much she dote me,
again, no compliant from her....

Going out,
i am always the one who can't make up my mind,
at the end she will always be the one to plan,
other then when we are not together,
i can plan and make her so wonderful like a princess,
what had happen to me.

i should not make her suffer anymore,
she must be a most xin fu Woman on earth
and not the most SAD woman on earth,
how i want her to be my wife,
but, i dont have and $$ to...
i cant give her security already,
i should give her more care and concern...
haiz, i am confuse,
but for sure ,
i know I REALLY LOVE HER....alot
i mean really alot.....


I am VERRRRRRY POOORRRRRRR....

can that person please do something please...
They are trying very hard to earn money already.
you are old enough to support yourself,
dont aim too high when u cant even go half the way,

I need money to pay for internet, televison and telephone
i need money to pay my own handphone bill
i need money for my bike road tax, insurance and inspection,
but i only have 1,100 only,
after deducting i only have less then 100 dollar left.
please do something please,
i want o save up i want to.,.....
please help and not make a burden ....
i am begging you...