what have i done

there are so many things that i have done that is irreversible

there is nothing i can do to forgive myself,
i am responsible for all the action,
There is no need to point finger anymore,
i am noting but trouble,
Now i have left a very deep scar on you,
salt have been apply instead of medication
the pain you going through is what i cant describe,

i promise to look after you,
but i fail,
i promise to shower care and concern,
yet i didn't fulfilled,
if time can be turn back,
i wont make you my girl,
cause you had suffer too much really too much with me.

all i can do is to pray,
pray for your health,
pray for your studies,
pray that you will always be happy.

looking back at the footstep,
that i and you have walk,
there is only my footstep left,
under my feet,
you have stop at the junction,
i had miss it,
no way of turning back.

there is so much things that i can make it happen,
but yet, i refuse to.
now i make things happen,
there are not suppose to.
no one force me to,
i choose my own path.

will you walk with me till our road finish?
or
will you spread the road with me and continue our journey?

There is no one who love me like you do,
nobody will replace you in my heart,
cause you are who you are.

Praying

I want to go back to the PAST!!!
from where we met,
cause i want to feel the LOVE
i dont know what can i do anymore....
just have to wait...


Wait for you to cool down,
i know i have done a very very very very terrible mistake!!!
you offer me a melon juice,
you know that is my fav,
yet, i make you angry!!!!
quarrel with you.....
what a damnnnn JERK am i!!!!!

Forgive me!!!
I LOVE YOU

Hurt

i am a jerk!!!!

why i quarrel with her always when it time for her test....
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY, why always had to happen this way.....!!!!


I LOVE HER, more then i love myself....
i am typing this with my tears dropping.....
i hate this way,

if i am given another chance to choose ,
YES, i will still choose you KUA PEI LEE...
but, i know....
she had hated me so badly damn bloody badly.....
i am beaten fallen!!!!
totally CRASH!!!
i need her, i love her!!!!
WTF had i done......
why do i always be like this!!!!!!
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!
all i wan to is to ask her,
WHY CANT I JUST FUCKING LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN!!!!!
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGg

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!

Understand

加油 BABY!!!
for your test.

加油 YIQUN,
for our future！！！

Now i finally understand what is called sensitive

Giving me a photo which is laminated , to prevent it from sticking to the wallet.

that is really thoughtful,

i hope i am not too late to understand,

you have been strain out fro your test and hall event,
worst , we quarrel...
that is the worst thing that can happen.
why am i so so so stupid,
why cant i understand things early?
why am i picking things up to quarrel,
reffering to your last blog post...

"My love language is quality time and touch.
Quality is the word."

i didnt manage to give you quailty time,
i only give you quarrel time and unhappiness time..
it time i really wake myself up,
you are so good to me,
i must treasure you,
must do what i must do!!!

LOVE

What is love?

Love is when

your so called normal friend and you willing to hold hand and step up to the furture together,

your GF willing to travel here and there just to let you rest when you forget to bring your stuff

what ever things is so so so wrong , she willing to forgive you and walk together

you didnt plan and your gf willing to go out for a unplan dating

you have no money , but she is willing to be with you

you are falling sick, there is always someone to rely on

you make her angry, but still she forgive you

she is everything to you

after all had happen, she stand next to you, believe and encourage you

she had to do things alone and will never complain

she know you are tired , she is tired as well, but just wannna tug you to sleep

she massage for you, even when she is very tired

she want to do so so many things with you, but still will be waiting for you to ask.

There is so so so so many things that my baby had done for me, there is so so so many wonderful things that you had done for me.
whats more can i ask for,

i need to make you feel more love,
i must control my temper,
i must understand you more,
i must be more sensitive,
i must dote you more,
i must talk to you more
i must make you feel that i am the one that you can rely on
i should not complain anymore
i must i must i must....

no more chip chip chip,

Baby, i know this feel days you are feeling tired ,
feeling why are we like this,
i am sorry, i am really sorry....

dont feel tired anymore,
i will carry you and take away all your buden....

I LOVE YOU, KUA PEI LEE

P.s: the last post is just what i am always thinking, no offend...

Crazy Mind

I have been thinking Crazily,
Is it a good thing or a bad thing...
Somehow i feel that you have change your attitude toward me,
but with your words, i knew i am thinking wildly

Will a person call someone that really mean something, or mislead things even though he doesnt mean it?
Will a person treat friends like he treat his partner?

This is the second wrost quarrel i had,
why were it always because of some malefriends?
i hate it....
Everytime it make me think wildly :(
it not because i dont trust you,
as i said, i dont trust others.
i just hate to quarrel la,
it fucking sianz..

i want you to feel love,
i want you to love me,
i want you to love me just like last time,
lesser and lesser message le,
i need them....

Trouble ,worry crazy.... Boyfriend

fianlly, i can concule i am CRAZY!!!!

25 more days,
it our 730 days together
17520 hours together
1051200 min spending

wooooooo hooo, guess what,
the pig is still sleeping and she is sleeping soundly....
hum...

i had some wired feeling,
it always happening,
ihatethisfeeling,
ihatetobebetray,

telling things has went wrong better then i anyhow think.......
arggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK