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A simple life

2010-06-17T18:14:00.002+08:00

Never realise that i can have this simple yet wonderful life,
feel so good that i am not been control,
the real life that i am suppose to have,
it not that you are controling me,
but somehow or rather, i am obeying the order that you gave,
and yes, i kinda of get over it ,
all thanks to all my friends,
who is always there for me,
thank you!!!! guys!!!!

who say that single can be perfect,
i am living a perfect life,
without considering about telling where i am,
what should i do,
oh yeah!!! one more thing, i am not spending much alone,
it proof that when i am in a relationship i am actually spending more!!!

i am contented,
i love my family,
i love my friends,
i love being SINGLE,
oh yeah, one last thing,
i am happy that we are apart!!!!~~~~

Feeling is so strong

2010-04-28T02:14:00.002+08:00

I didn't even notice that
i have fallen for you.

Shit, i no longer drink white chocolate dream..
i dont know why,
not because that you drink that drink,
just that i change myself...
there is too much painful experience..

what should i do!!!!
oh no!!!!

Do you hear me?
I'm talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky
Oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you, I promise you I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohh
Ohhhohhhohhhohhohhohhhohhohhohhohh

What a week

2010-04-26T07:39:00.003+08:00

Stay at home rotting,
Kneel hurt thigh hurt,
Thanks to the accident on AYE....
been 2 years ever since i enter into hospital again..
and again, due to bike accident...

"while riding back home from work
near ITE DOVER , hear a loud revving from the bike in front of me,
the next moment i knew, he is right infront of me, i manage to doge him before i hit him.
suddenly heard a lot plastic sound , it def sound very familiar and YES... that really sound like 2 years ago!!! haha, i can feel my whole body surfing on the road and when my head is facing the on coming car the third bike skid and fall. Three bike three person!!! Helped the other 2 rider up and their bike!!! After giving a tumb up and ensure everybody is fine.... i drove my bike home with painful kneel cap, thigh and elbow!!!! back straight HOME!!!"

Even though the injury is not really visibile ,
But kneel hurt like fuck,
going for my dressing and i am going to see doc today again for my hurt kneel!!!

Bike
Super visible Crack on my fairing!!!
not going to bother the cosmetic of my bike!!!
it still able to ride can le!!!!

AND i am just so lucky that it didnt happen before my tioman diving trip!!! hehe.......

and i am lucky that i have family and friends
who show me lots of care and concern without fail!!!

ok, got to get ready for my review le!!!

:)

2010-04-15T00:42:00.000+08:00

my life is just tooo happy ,
that is why i didnt blog for so so so so long......
yup....
:)

I am who i am

2010-04-08T01:35:00.003+08:00

Oh , yeah....
I just feel so comfortable being myself,
haha...
Just go kayak as and when i like,
dont need to think what is going on,
like relationship.
No headache, No worries......

I just simply love my single life...
OH YEAH!!!!!!

8 more days to advance diving!!!!!

jerk is always a jerk,
I hope that you will get all punishment,
Oh heaven please punish him,but not brutally.
KARMA KARMA KARMA
What comes around goes around!!!

I no longer feel hurt

2010-04-04T13:36:00.002+08:00

I thought i will feel so hurt,
But not really now,
It so easy....

JERK is always a JERK!!!
Hope that you will suffer!!! haha
okie, la.. i am not that bad...!!!

i am carefree,
with so many people loving me!!
oh YEAH!!!

12 more days, i am going DIVING!!! hahahahaha

A new look

2010-03-29T00:25:00.000+08:00

A great start,
A new look,
A whole new colour for my blog,
The colour that will make my day always....

Persuading my life

2010-03-27T19:45:00.001+08:00

persuading my life
3 more week and i am going diving....
oh ya.... just cant wait for it...

Life

2010-03-25T21:28:00.003+08:00

I start to slow things down in my life,
unless i am working..
Things are much more beautiful,
Never knew that...
Flower are much more vibrant,
Bird are much more beautiful,
Human are much more better,

I just love my life now...
The life that i never knew that i can be....

Diving Diving Diving

2010-03-22T22:40:00.002+08:00

I am going for my advance Diving on 16 April - 18 April
Wooooooo~~~~
just pay the deposit and that make me feel wooooo la la....
3 tan signing up for diving course..
SHAWN TAN, TERRENCE TAN ,JERER TAN...
actually just wanted to go for my leisure dive,
but since it just 90 dollar extra,
why not go for my advance!!!

Night Dive, Wreck Dive !!
i just cant imagine myself diving,
after getting my advance diving,
i want to go Maldives,
but, that is will be reserve for my future Wife and i honeymoon...

hum, bali and Australia is going to be my next dive site and place
but guess i have to saved alot alot alot for that first before i even start to think about it...
hum.. maybe bali is my next place for me to dive.. haha!!!

I found something to look forward to other then my Class 2A,
i will complete my diving course first, then Class 2A license..
since it before my theory test for class 2A..

Go on yiqun, Jia you yiqun

Glad that you called today,
Dont think too much, at least i know that i am your friend...

Take things slowly

2010-03-21T03:35:00.003+08:00

Looking out of my window,
A green Balloon fly up up to the sky,
I wanna grab it, but it just too beautiful,
Too far Too far...
background with a pretty Crescent Moon,
Blue Blue SKY..
It will be carefree without someone,
It will fly high without someone.
Let it FLY, LET it FLY...

i'm looking forward for 30 march 2010
so that i can donate my blood,
for a fresh new start.
i'm looking forward for my diving trip,
so that i can throw all hurtful memories,
to the sea,
DRIFT to South China SEA....
DRIFT to Pacific Ocean,
DRIFT!!!!
i dont want to remember anymore!!!
Drift away away away from me..

Stupid FLU, go away go away go away..

Inch to DEATH

2010-03-20T11:31:00.002+08:00

i am lucky i am still alive now,
if not i should be below a sand truck which cut my lane,
i brush through the plant at the side of the road,
and manage to get myself out of the situation.

Guess what, i didnt blame the driver at all,
i blame myself traveling too fast,
120 hum....
it my fault that i didnt high beam the driver,
worse part of all, my bike is small.

BUT still , i am lucky that i am alive typing this blogpost now...
haha...

I am dying from my flu viral......
somebody save me!!!!

I'm in love again

2010-03-18T13:07:00.003+08:00

Yeah!!!
i am in love again,
this time round is no other than myself,
i love the changes in me.

i listen to someone,
attentively and wait till he stop,
then i started talking.

I slow down my pace of life,
it true,
i really can see things more clearer and things that i didn't notice in life.
:)

going to keep on going,
Wussssssssh, Jia you jia you jia you!!!!

Changing

2010-03-17T20:16:00.002+08:00

It either i change the world
or i change myself
I cant change the world
It is easier to change myself
so i will change myself

I am going for a diving trip at 16 - 18 March
This is the time i go refresh myself,
when i come back from this trip,
i am going to change myself totally

First of all,
Listen to other's needs and wants,
i know that this is gonna take along time,
but if i dont try, it gonna take forever.
so must do it.

secondly,
learn to appreciate things happen around me,
appreciate things and people.
I had not appreciate things around me since i am born,
so i am going to do it too.

thirdly
Dont argue with people,
let people say finish before i start to talk,
it goes back to my first change.

i am going to post all my change in a daily basic,
so my fellow reader, you can tell me.
am i doing the right things.
YESH, gonna to change myself.

oh ya, of course not forgetting to say that i am gonna to save money too
i have only 2k per month,
i cant expect myself to save alot,
so i am gonna start from little,
many little turn to alot.

i bought myself a TATTY BEAR,
so that i can talk to him when i am sad.
Casue he cant talk back too, hehe...
And he really can slow my life down,
i am gonna to slow my life down and appreciate things and people around me.

Bye bye Yiqun
Hello Yiqun

Good Luck

2010-03-17T17:55:00.002+08:00

Finally you message me,
All the best for everything in your life.

Thank you for giving me unconditionally love for the past 2 years
really appreciate every small and big things that you had done for me,
all those will be kept inside my heart.

Hope we remain as friends,
maybe not now,
but in the near future!!!

Jia you, good luck!!

HURT AGAIN

2010-03-17T07:14:00.006+08:00

If i dont care about you,
Why would i love you at the begining,
and YES, What you say make mye hurlt,
I am really very hurt!!!!

i am at tuas and i forget to bring my key, what is there for me a goody-two-shoes

PLEASE ASK PEOPLE WHAT I TOLD THEM!!!!!!
You didnt clarify, now you put words in my mouth,
but whatever you had say, i still love you

I dont know why are you feeling so FURIOUS about it,
i dont know what you have been through past 6 days,
i guess you are just venting all your anger on me.
if that make you feel better, then good.

i have nothing to say!!!
all i can do is I AM HURT.
we really need to talk, to clear all this misunderstanding,

诺

2010-03-16T11:01:00.002+08:00

我答应过你，我不会提出分手。
应为被分手的那个，会很难受，
我不要在让你受伤心的事，
我不要你在勾住过往。

我干原我伤心。。。
那么你就会快乐。。。。

为何你对我许下承诺

2010-03-15T13:36:00.003+08:00

Click here to listen

我不怪你，只能怪我自己没有爱你多一点。。。

也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间

我原谅你

i want to be your NEXT boy friend!!!!!

2010-03-12T16:33:00.003+08:00

this is suppose to be in the center of the baby breath.
after reading your last post,

i cried,
i know all those things, i wish i am your next boyfriend,
just to let you know, i throw away the Kinder Bueno cause you throw at me, i am angry i did things that are not suppose to. i am sorry!!!!

I don't like things bought if it can be made.
that why i hardly buy things for you, i rather handmade to you.

I like to paint my own room.
i helped halfway, and i fall asleep. idiot me why i sleep sleep and tired.

I hate to sleep with the fan blowing in my face.
that what i did, i correct it by facing it up so that you wont get to blow it.

And I fall sick easily if I sleep in aircondition.
:( i am sory and love by you. cause you know that i am hot and sweating already. that why you always on a/C for me.

I like to lie on the nape of the shoulders and fall asleep.
i love it when you sleep on my nape even that would cause pain sometime.

I like to be driven around but I fall asleep on moving transport.
yes yes yes, and i always get knock on the head.
i love to drive you around, i feel so loved.
when you tickle my fat tummy....

I don't like to chitchat on the phone. Talk to me in person.
i know, but haiz!!!!

I can't spell in my head, so if need be, spell it s-l-o-w-l-y
WOLS :)

I need sleep when I'm angry or frustrated, so leave me to rest if I say so.
i know it but i alway did another way round to you.

I cry when I watch drama, and I don't like to be disturbed or laugh at. Just watch with me.
That why i alway get tissue or let you wipe on my shirt, but sometime i did disturb you, i admit.

I get hungry at night easily but is always too lazy to get food.
I love you, and i love to get food for you cause you alway so happy and love when eating.

Don't stop me from junking on seaweed and chocolate.
oppsssss

I'm super sensitive to cigarette smell, just admit if you smoked.
i know!! we quarrel because of that a few time.

I wrap myself up in thick blanket even in the afternoon and my hotter my body is, the more comfortably I sleep.
PO PIA!!!!!
soa soa ho liao!!!

I get backaches and sprained necks on soft beds.
i am sorry that i choose that for you, i can correct it. trust me!!

I get cramps during menses and don't like to be ignored.
i am sorry!! i am not there when it really severe, but trust me no more MIA

I prefer salted popcorn but I'll always eat sweet popcorn with you.
i know, we share sweet and salted pop corn together and i simply love it.

I will try to breathe at your pace when I'm lying beside you
like i told you before, i also breathe on your pace but i always get breathless

one step at a time...

2010-03-12T11:16:00.005+08:00

What am i going to do about it?

well, guess had to use time to heal things.
time time time, heal everything!!!

since now i had cut my hair,
i actually thought of piercing some part of my body or tattoo to remind myself of things that i had done wrong.

well, at the end, why do i need to?
another why? see, i always thought of why why why?
like asking myself, Why did she do that?
Why did she want to end our close to 2 years relationship?
Why do i always make her angry?
now instead of asking WHY?
i will ask myself , what things had went wrong?
what should i do now?
what should i do to prevent things from happening again?

now get back to topic of what i should do.
get my class 2a license
since my current bike is giving me so much problem and headache,
i am going to upgrade and change bike to cb400 (super 4)
and i can save alot from maintenance.
got speed and NO MORE 2t..... yeah..

save money
for my last 23 years...
i always think, why do i need to save?
use it when i have it, wont it be better?
don't have money then don't spend.
yup, this is really a BIG wrong why and answer that i had given myself.

next slim down, since i had already lose 5kg in 2 days. i am going to hit my own target..
65 kg... yup, FYI, 2 days ago i am 78 now i am 73. The magical power of breaking up.

what do i learn from this?
i learn to be sensitive.
i learn to understand people more.
i learn not to take things for granted.
i learn to knock on people door and wait for people to open.(very rude of me in the past)
i learn to listen to love one needs and wants.
i learn to update my blog when happy and sad.
i learn to schedule my time with my love one.
i learn that bath is action, bathe is the correct word to use.
i learn that many is countable , much is uncountable.
i learn to bring my future love one wherever i go, of course, ask her if she want to join me and my friends.
i learn to treasure every small and big things people had done and helped me.
i learn that 思心 is the key to everything,
as my mum told me. Learn to look at others feeling even though sometime you will feel "wei qu". Don't always think about yourself.
i have learn to control my emotion.
i have learn that DONT be too suspicious.
If i am in doubt, ask?
it never too late to learn things, as long as i willing to change!!!
NO MORE PAST YI QUN
I am looking forward for a future YIQUN
YEAH!!!!

When so many things had gone wrong. i know that i had done something right.

learn to love people around me
even though i learn this from a very very painful and hurtful lesson.
but yes, that is a learning point for me,
yi qun yi qun dont take things for granted anymore....

i know that i cant forget you
i know that i still love you
if one day any day, you were to hold my hand again
i will hold back yours tightly and tell you,
"i am sorry , i love you!!!"

陈毅群，加油！！！

Hurt and sad

2010-03-12T08:17:00.003+08:00

Reading your last post,
i don't know what to say,
all i hope is a talk with you,
hope that things wont turn so nasty,
i had create a chance and destroy it,
i never hate you to be with your girls,
my last last post about that is refering to ur new friends.
there is nthing that i can do now,
just hope and pray.
that you will come back to me by my side.

i wanna to be with you,
to fulfil all our promises,
our plan, our future.

what can i do to make you turn around,
what can i do to make you come back to me,
i really do love you....

what can i do to let you know that i am a change man now,
that i can carry you all the way,
no more pain no more sorrow,

2 years relationship just ended like that,
there is no places for me anymore,
there is no one for me anymore......

ｌｏｓｅ　5kg

2010-03-12T00:09:00.004+08:00

8 more days to our 2 years
but i had done things that are terribly wrong,
will you forgive me?
will you message me tomorrow after your test?

i am still holding on, hope you are ｔｏｏ

i am changing

2010-03-11T18:11:00.003+08:00

Baby, i am showing to you,
i really can change to be a better person,
i am doing my part to change myself,
i hope that you can believe me,

we had been together to almost 2 years,
we had gone through thick and thin together,
i really hope that you wont give us up.

i had enroll my class 2A,
i am showing to you i am not chip chip chip any more.

what have i done

2010-03-11T04:55:00.002+08:00

there are so many things that i have done that is irreversible

there is nothing i can do to forgive myself,
i am responsible for all the action,
There is no need to point finger anymore,
i am noting but trouble,
Now i have left a very deep scar on you,
salt have been apply instead of medication
the pain you going through is what i cant describe,

i promise to look after you,
but i fail,
i promise to shower care and concern,
yet i didn't fulfilled,
if time can be turn back,
i wont make you my girl,
cause you had suffer too much really too much with me.

all i can do is to pray,
pray for your health,
pray for your studies,
pray that you will always be happy.

looking back at the footstep,
that i and you have walk,
there is only my footstep left,
under my feet,
you have stop at the junction,
i had miss it,
no way of turning back.

there is so much things that i can make it happen,
but yet, i refuse to.
now i make things happen,
there are not suppose to.
no one force me to,
i choose my own path.

will you walk with me till our road finish?
or
will you spread the road with me and continue our journey?

There is no one who love me like you do,
nobody will replace you in my heart,
cause you are who you are.

Praying

2010-03-10T20:38:00.004+08:00

I want to go back to the PAST!!!
from where we met,
cause i want to feel the LOVE
i dont know what can i do anymore....
just have to wait...

Wait for you to cool down,
i know i have done a very very very very terrible mistake!!!
you offer me a melon juice,
you know that is my fav,
yet, i make you angry!!!!
quarrel with you.....
what a damnnnn JERK am i!!!!!

Forgive me!!!
I LOVE YOU

Hurt

2010-03-10T18:43:00.003+08:00

i am a jerk!!!!

why i quarrel with her always when it time for her test....
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY, why always had to happen this way.....!!!!

I LOVE HER, more then i love myself....
i am typing this with my tears dropping.....
i hate this way,

if i am given another chance to choose ,
YES, i will still choose you KUA PEI LEE...
but, i know....
she had hated me so badly damn bloody badly.....
i am beaten fallen!!!!
totally CRASH!!!
i need her, i love her!!!!
WTF had i done......
why do i always be like this!!!!!!
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!
all i wan to is to ask her,
WHY CANT I JUST FUCKING LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN LISTEN!!!!!
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGg

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!

Understand

2010-03-08T23:57:00.002+08:00

加油 BABY!!!
for your test.

加油 YIQUN,
for our future！！！

Now i finally understand what is called sensitive

Giving me a photo which is laminated , to prevent it from sticking to the wallet.

that is really thoughtful,

i hope i am not too late to understand,

you have been strain out fro your test and hall event,
worst , we quarrel...
that is the worst thing that can happen.
why am i so so so stupid,
why cant i understand things early?
why am i picking things up to quarrel,
reffering to your last blog post...

"My love language is quality time and touch.
Quality is the word."

i didnt manage to give you quailty time,
i only give you quarrel time and unhappiness time..
it time i really wake myself up,
you are so good to me,
i must treasure you,
must do what i must do!!!

LOVE

2010-03-08T14:41:00.005+08:00

What is love?

Love is when

your so called normal friend and you willing to hold hand and step up to the furture together,

your GF willing to travel here and there just to let you rest when you forget to bring your stuff

what ever things is so so so wrong , she willing to forgive you and walk together

you didnt plan and your gf willing to go out for a unplan dating

you have no money , but she is willing to be with you

you are falling sick, there is always someone to rely on

you make her angry, but still she forgive you

she is everything to you

after all had happen, she stand next to you, believe and encourage you

she had to do things alone and will never complain

she know you are tired , she is tired as well, but just wannna tug you to sleep

she massage for you, even when she is very tired

she want to do so so many things with you, but still will be waiting for you to ask.

There is so so so so many things that my baby had done for me, there is so so so many wonderful things that you had done for me.
whats more can i ask for,

i need to make you feel more love,
i must control my temper,
i must understand you more,
i must be more sensitive,
i must dote you more,
i must talk to you more
i must make you feel that i am the one that you can rely on
i should not complain anymore
i must i must i must....

no more chip chip chip,

Baby, i know this feel days you are feeling tired ,
feeling why are we like this,
i am sorry, i am really sorry....

dont feel tired anymore,
i will carry you and take away all your buden....

I LOVE YOU, KUA PEI LEE

P.s: the last post is just what i am always thinking, no offend...

Crazy Mind

2010-03-07T20:38:00.003+08:00

I have been thinking Crazily,
Is it a good thing or a bad thing...
Somehow i feel that you have change your attitude toward me,
but with your words, i knew i am thinking wildly

Will a person call someone that really mean something, or mislead things even though he doesnt mean it?
Will a person treat friends like he treat his partner?

This is the second wrost quarrel i had,
why were it always because of some malefriends?
i hate it....
Everytime it make me think wildly :(
it not because i dont trust you,
as i said, i dont trust others.
i just hate to quarrel la,
it fucking sianz..

i want you to feel love,
i want you to love me,
i want you to love me just like last time,
lesser and lesser message le,
i need them....

Trouble ,worry crazy.... Boyfriend

fianlly, i can concule i am CRAZY!!!!

2010-03-06T12:00:00.003+08:00

25 more days,
it our 730 days together
17520 hours together
1051200 min spending

wooooooo hooo, guess what,
the pig is still sleeping and she is sleeping soundly....
hum...

i had some wired feeling,
it always happening,
ihatethisfeeling,
ihatetobebetray,

telling things has went wrong better then i anyhow think.......
arggggggggggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK

2010-01-30T09:32:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 22 MONTH

Time files,
it been 22 month already,
thinking back, i just feel like it just yesterday ,
that i ask you to be my gf..

So many things happen between us,
things that make us to the point verge of breaking up,
things that make us love each others more
things that make us remember that we are a couple,
things that always in our mind that we are so happy
that we are together.

approx 682 Days together,
it not too long,
but it definitely not too short,

Cant wait to have 50K,
casue i wanna to see you,
standing beside me,
holding my hand,
dressing in a white beautiful gown,
walking down the aisle with me,
with our family and friends blessing,
we made our vow as husband and wife.

Down with Flu

2010-01-29T09:38:00.002+08:00

I am down with flu,
That is what they call COLD,
Taken the Medication,
But my body seems no respond to it,
Went to see DOC again,
It a different Viral Infection,
Which i need a heavier DOSAGE,
I need immune tablet to boost up,
i have total of 4 days of MC
shit, what a week...

My GF is middle of her Competition,
i totally miss her last competition of basketball,
i know she is sad, but she just accept it that i fall ill,
Traveling here and there even though she is sick,
down with food poisoning which i am at fault,
learn a lesson, always cook food/reheat food with caution,
food hot doesnt mean bacterial is kill....
Brought Sleepy from WEST to EAST,
Late for training cause she want to have dinner with me and my family,
take bus and MRT instead of cab so that she can saved money,
telling me everythings is gonna be ok , even thought she know that i hurt alot due to this FLU
i wanted to tell you how much you really mean to me,
but i guess words cant explain all the feeling that is running in me,
all i can say to let you understand is

You are the AIR,
The reason i breathe every sec of my life,
you are the water,
The reason i drink everyday,
You are the day,
The reason i wake up everyday,
You are my Night,
cause i can hug you to slp/in person or in dream.
you are my strength,
The reason for me to work even how much things happen,
You are my Sprite
The one that bring me up when i was down ,the one who share my joy together with me.
You are my color
The one who always brighten up my life with colorful crayon and paint brush.
You are my everything.......
The reason i believe in love, care and eternity love!!!

Flash Back Memories

2010-01-29T09:36:00.002+08:00

Yeah, Cindy and Stanely is married ,
whohohohohohohohoo...
staying over at NSRCC for help out for the wedding,

played game like "chubby Bunny", ok i really hate mash mellow now!!!
simply just hate the taste of it... for the moment..

actually i cant really post much, hum..... there will be all for now.....

It take a sec to say i love you but it take a life time to share

2010-01-16T12:48:00.002+08:00

Waiting for my handphone to ring,
waiting for the tv to flash....
yup, guess you know what it mean, haha...

hum, past days,
SICK....

hum, dunno why i having a seveual headach,
maybe thanks to people who FUCK me for nthing,
Screw me with things i didnt do,
Throw things to me when other cant complete,
Fuck me for things that doesnt even concern me,
slander me when i did my stuff,
WTH, i just hate it..

i cant be there when you need me the most baby...
when your grandma is hospitalise , when you have tonnes to things to do for your project,
when you have training every other day, with bruiser and ache...

New secondary jobg, new things to learn
more shit to do now... haiz.... gotta rush and learn more that things.... haiz.......
blackjack 55 here i come.....

chocolate smell of AYE, please move yourself to NUS

2010-01-12T01:00:00.003+08:00

i have done something very terrible...
i should have control my temper,
i should not have say things that make you upset..

tooo late ....

just hope that next time i'll do it...

i hate it when quarreling with you,
rather tian tian mi mi ,

"it always take two hand to clap"

almost died

2010-01-06T11:19:00.002+08:00

thanks to thoes driver or rider who dont like to signal when changing of lane...
they are one damn bloody busted.

is it really so diffcult to signal?
will is waste your battery , unless you are telling me that you are parking ur vechicle.
just a simple action for driver is use your pinky to signal, for rider just use your bloody TUMB..
it just a simple simple action...

argggggg, curse them to hell la...
involve in accident then they will understand what is the importance of signal....

sorry baby..
i am not a road bully,
but i just cant tolerate , cause i almost lose my life in the early evening, then come another idiot who dont signal... yup...
but still the chocolate in the air of pionner road ease my anger... yup..
simply just love you... muack...

going to go back to work le.... tired tired.......

ps: do rest your muscle ok?
Jia you for your FYP, BABY!!!!
******support support******

simply 幸福 21 months and still counting

2009-12-31T02:13:00.003+08:00

alrite shall summary what i did pass few days.

due to my house Internet is down and i am just simply lazy,
that the reason that i didnt update my blog, sorry...

yup, been on leave ever since Christmas eve, whahha,
never been so carefree ever since i join the forces...

firstly to say,
brought bed from expo, i should start listening to my baby, haha,
went over to expo see a 900++ bed thought is like very expensive so we cab down to another warehouse that sell furniture at paya lebar, ok , it really waste of trip and time.. arg.. nothing and just expensive. so dont try going to paya lebar 7 storey warehouse that sell furniture..

yup, follow by 2 days sumptuous dinner at baby house , whahahaha..

next, Christmas day celebration at baby red cross house...hum... no comment... haha
and well, i drank during Christmas day,haha, so am i drunk, haha, only like a few cup of the coffee liquor that i cant remember called what le.. but, i just simply love it, even it cause me to itch.. haha, cause i can legally sleep on my baby lap , hahhahahahaa. SHIT, am i dead..

ok, guys.. you all really must watch AVATAR 3D, koaz, damn nice, shall not cap on what happen during the show, cause it really a must watch show.. yup..

Christmas tree
every layer is represent difficulties that we need to overcome,
ever layer mean i am always here to support and comfort every fall so that you are save and sound...
it not mine Christmas tree, it OURS Christmas tree,
i really enjoy myself this few days, i really appreciate every bit and single that you had done for me, i simply just love you.. HAPPY 21 Months .. YEAH....

TLC

2009-12-22T06:33:00.003+08:00

Oh no..... my baby is sick,
well, i cannot do anything better than be by yourside when you are sick...
at least when i am by yourside, the water is always full,
there will be me to nag you to sleep,
there will be me to hug you and check your temp...
there will be me to buy food for you when you are hungry.

i simply just love you as a whole,
i love to talk to you too ,
i love it when i am able to tell you how i feel.
i just simply love it..

work
being too tired , every single day, there wil be defect
finish the first defect here come the second one
finish the third defect here come the third one..
wa lau, never ending and i cant get my sleep back.
2 am 4 am , which will the alarm sounded at that time..
(guys, FYI alarm is control by some computer, so if the temp of water level low for some machinery the alarm will sound.)

arggggg, i am tried ...
very tired......

Cooking~~~~

2009-12-12T16:15:00.002+08:00

Today Menu

Starter
mushroom soup

main course
Pork chop with Demi Glace
potato with mayo with bacon beads
shrimp with wasupyo

hoho, today is my Chinese birthday
yeah, have mee sua form my mum..
haha, just so love by my parent.
ever year without fail, there will be a heart warming mee sua with 2 eggs.

went to city hall to help my baby to collect her contact lens ,
so so so many, and and and i message the wrong person today .
instead of messaging my baby that i am happy that i have collect her contact lens
i message the seller of the contact lens, haha..
guess they might be thinking , WTH, this guy trying to act cute.. hahaha

anyway, just not to waste the trip to go over to city hall,
i went up to grab myself a cup of starbuck,
while i am proceeding toward to starbuck ,
a young adult came forward to me and ask me do i want to paticipate a survery for a company called DNA in NEW water.
i will be given a 5 dollar cash voucher for that haha, SONG!!!, i want to get a cup of drink and i actually had a 5 dollar voucher haha so all i need is to pay 2.30 for a venti drink haha..
what a good start for my chinese birthday haha..

shall wait for my baby to call me so that we i can fetch her to my hse to have a dinner by chef tan, who is he?
who else will that be other then the person wrtiting and posting this very post.. haha

oh my oh my

2009-12-10T18:02:00.003+08:00

You have moved to hall,
guess i really have separation dunno what ,
hum...

just simply love hugging you to sleep,
seeing you sleeping like a pig,
hugging "shaggy"

you speak during your sleep,
it some Chinese words. (hhahhahaha)

yup, finally fixed my bike le.. haha
BOMB, again as normal.**Shhhhhh**
*my baby going to said me, Waste money again" haha"
just cant wait to celebrate Christmas and Christmas day with you.
second Christmas with you le baby,
i want to have to celebrate every single Christmas in my life with you.
HOHOHOHOHOHO......
what will you be getting for me?
haha, stupid where got ask ppl de..

you told me that when you say you dont love me,
it only mean that point of time only,
i always say things that i am not suppose the say,
but i hope you know that it all QI TO HUA,
yup, I LOVE YOU, and i always will forever.... yup yup,

shall wait for your message to tell me LEFT on or RIGHT one
MIssssss~~~~~

to be continue...

2009-12-08T06:15:00.004+08:00

ok, while i am typing my last entries, that curry came out from her bathe.. haha
shall continue before i go to work

hum, you told me , "see, you are also important "
wa.... my heart is like...... wa....... ok that is a feeling that i cant explain haha
you told ying ren mum that need to tie me up le,
i am like, TIE TIE TIE TIE, haha, actually even you dont want to tie me up, i will tie my self up , haha

Moving to HALL
hum, baby, u are moving to hall le...
like today... kinda of yi yi bu se even like now,
but i know i can still visit you , haha, go and steal your SUBWAY cookie from your hall room, hahah, Dont care, i will eat up your cookie....

shall applied my leave so that we can go fly kite, cycling and maybe fishing together... yeah....
shal do all the things together..... yup yup, shall not , no i should say do not make any more disappointment to you anymore....

LOVE CURRYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!

okie, this time round no druming from your stomach... haha, **HIDE**

It over but it not an end

2009-12-08T01:18:00.002+08:00

finally, Aik Hong and Ying Ren wedding dinner is over,
yeah yeah yeah, even thought i know i didnt really help much,
but, i hope i do help a little, yup...

it not an easy task, alot of hidden work to do,
guess this is a good exprience for me, to get ready my own wedding, yup....
i did learn learn alot of stuff from them.

you just make me feel so so so so love,
CURRY..... KEW!!!!
hahaha, ok you are coming out...

We are loving each other

2009-12-07T13:00:00.008+08:00

Gratz to Suzhen and Dao Ming

Gratz to Aik Hong and Ying Ren

Haha, Tell you what, While i am typing this blog
,my baby peilee is deep a sleep,
another secret, her tummy is like druming like crazy,
giving lots of beat !! haha.....
even thought we just had our breakfast, seaweed and Mine Shine(Milk Tea)
haha, MONSTER!!!

Yeah, The words that Aik Hong ahd Yingren said to each other, make me tears,
not really cry. haha, so touching la.

i vow to treat my baby peilee, with the best i can,
i must not make her cry nor sad anymore...
NO MORE!!!!
Thank you baby for the Shirt,pants, watch and Shoes.... basically, the outfit is totally sponsor by my baby, haha.... not the shoes cause i pay you 10 dollar haha..
well, i love them so so so so much... TENG KEW baby......
hope you love the skirt i bought for you too hahaha, even though i just pay.. hahaha,
but, i know you are happy... hehe, cheers...

10 is coming, 我会我会自动.. haha
anyway, this few days i can see my baby is very very very happy..
i really regret not doing alot of things with you baby...
i really haiz...
from today onwards, i will change to be a better man,
a better Boyfriend and a better Husband to be...
well, here is some intresting pic that i took with you...

Our Couple Watch

Mrs and Mr Curry... haha

New Skirt

Family

hum... i just love going out with you all ,
i almost forget the feeling,
like we all used to do,
pulling mum bag, holding her hand..
holding dad strong hand,
kicking and pulling each other,
stomping our feet when we cant get what we want...
losing our way and get lost.
playing the balls at Dohby Ghuat dunno where,
haiz, just love it...
just simply love you guys....
All of you are always the best....

　

啊油

2009-12-04T07:11:00.002+08:00

you touch m heart again ,
despite of things happening ,

you told me ,
i must go trought a hard way to learn things ,
who want to lose some one...

i need to do some thing about it ,
i can mend our heart ....

i really feel touch again by your words ......
it really inspire me.....
i am so sorry that i had say some hash words ,

jia you , jia you .... let run together ....compelte our race.....

sensing

2009-12-03T07:24:00.003+08:00

i have said in my last blog entry
i have sense some amiss
i need you to tell me
i need you to be open to me
you are not you anymore
you are torturingme

i ask you some question,
you ans me wiredly

i am not sleeping wel last night'
wake up in he middle of the night even thought i slept late
been thinking lot of things ,
do you know ?

you ask me what happen, today morning , i dont know how to say ,
wanted to show you that there are some thing not wrong but my heart feel pain when i see you looking at me
saw your scare on your face make me hurt more....

just hope today we can have a chance to sit down and talk while rushing your brother video...

i love you

2009-12-01T07:30:00.003+08:00

i have been waiting for this for a very very long time
hope this is truthfully from the bottom of your heart,
still remember what you have told me, when we are quarreling?
one sentence or words like this, heal everything

nov 09, have three significant meaning,
firstly our 20 months together and still counting..
we have gone through sweet and not forgetting bitter,
of our relationship, thank you baby for tolerating all this while,
from a humble and inmature relationship to mature and trying to get our future right relationship,
planning our next big thing in life. earning more buck,
despite of me being stubbon and childish,
you still accept me in your life, thank you my love
for holding on...

secondly our blogshop isfinally open,
HUAT AH !!!!
finally one bigger step of our life.....hope to earn big buck from that,
xin ku ni le, bao bei,
even thought i had done lots of mess in building the blogshop webpage..

lastly, it my birthday month,
haha.....

i just simply love going out with you,
watching movie holding hand, strolling in the mall,
going back to your old house, waaa... just so love la...
haha.....anyway, to any people who is reading my blog,
please you must catch 2012, that is a real good show...

one lie to cover another..
i know somethings is wrong,
but i dont wish to say out....
just hope you can open to me....

Simple Touch

2009-11-28T14:10:00.003+08:00

27 Nov 1986, that the day when I POOP out from my mother womb,
It been 23 years down the road,
It time to think back what have I went through,
What have I done?
What is my next aim/goal in life…?

I don’t need a grand birthday celebration,
And I still can feel the love around,

Families,
Every year, they will not forget to celebrate my B’Day,
Despite with just 1 cake and a few add-on dishes,
I feel love and wanted.
Girlfriend
Even with your exam is on 28 nov,
You still gave your precious time out for me
Have a cake at bakezin instead of Ben and Jerry Cheery gacia
*ok, I am dead if I still complain haha, cause I am the one who wanna to eat the cake… *
Even though you are still feeling jealous about my 21 birthday celebration,
Erhhhhh…. Next year b’day shall give you surprise… !!! hehe….

Not a matter how much cash you put in for a celebration,
It how you appreciate people in life.

Last but not least,
Friends
Thank you guys for all your well wishes
This makes me feel that I still have lot of friends around…

Memories
There are so so so many memories
I just hope that the memories will always stay so so sweet…
As and when, when we wanted to stroll down the memories lane,
The door will always open for us, to feed us with the Sweet, bitter sour memories...

Toilet
You are so excited when you finally found the toilet,
But something very scary happen, it under renovation
That make you need to find another toilet,
But YOUR chocolate is coming out,
Then, there is another toilet,
This time no renovation (chill),
In the greatest relieve you enter to the toilet,
OH no, there leis only 2 cubic but both are not available….
What make matter worst, there is someone waiting outside...
Damn, you started to move left and right,
Thinking of some way to stop ur chocolate from coming out…
Then you started to let people notice that you are outside waiting IMPAITENTLY
Stepping your feet loudly then normal
Coughing loudly
TSK TSK loudly
Then when it your turn to enter,
OH NO…. the last user squads on the toilet sit instead of sitting
If not there is some left over on the sit cover
The worst of all no tap no toilet paper…
Well, I guess that is the worst case scenario
Does any of this thing sound familiar to you..?
haha

With You

2009-11-25T11:31:00.003+08:00

I simply just enjoy and love it...

New blogshop desgin had been finalise
it damn beautiful la...

haha

How long can it last,
i really dont know
all i know is i should stop doing stupid things
simple and easy things like
finding something..
simple love... it a normal words but full of definition

need to change my self....
Need to, must to...
cant wait for you to finish your exam,
then we can do lots of things together...
LOVE LOVE..

i love my new window 6.5 looks,
but i hate the internet explorer....

WORK
Sometime i just can't stand some people
it ok if you know alot of things
but the problem is u dont know
please wake up ur F ideal
i am sick and tired of telling you to do things already
You are nthing but a lazy idiot
I just hope that you are reflect what have you done...
argggggg..... FUCK
STOP SHOWING ME THAT FUCKING FACE...

a simple message on my side bar

2009-11-23T06:36:00.004+08:00

wow , here a short stories of 1 couple...
haha, they are quarreling,
despite of that, both of them dint want each other to know that they want each other to cheer up,
so the gf tag on the boy friend blog andthe bf tag on the gf blog...
haha, you see' some thing is left to be done that way.
they both know' but they just love it that way.
a secret reader , who silently cheering up each other,
and fyi that the way how their love start too... haha...
sound familiar, not going to eloborate more about that haha...

wow, went over to god dad flower shop,
cause ying ren parent wanted to buy some plant for their house for deco.
haha, 我们骗到了“仙人掌 ”dont know am i write, not a normal one but a catus that is going to boom..
haha, went over to mee pok eating session, waited for half and hour.
so during that time we started chatting, it some time wonderful that people know what i am trying to mean, haha...
the jeans and the white shirt stories... haha..

shopping' waaa.....
who say shopping with gf is not fun,
it damm fun lox,
now i understand why people can swipe their card so happily,
for me because your face is feel so xin fu , haha...
but anyway it buying stuff to work..
any really, you really look very beautiful on all the dress....
click click....

singing song like paparazzi, hero and wu ding,
as usual, you are asking me my hero is wrong.
haha' to be frank , sometime right sometime wrong haha....
singing, wu ding.... play and pause 2 youtuibe clip...haha..
i really didnt know my singing is air come out de..
but, really .... you really sing like me... haha...

i just love it, buying food at the middle of the night' cause my belove hungry monster is hungry,
haha,
i just love it, even thought we had some hipcup but this hipcup will be cure with some small amount of water,
no more hipcup .. hehe

i really didnt know some detail is so important,
i will really look into it....

幸福掌握在你手理....陈毅群...
要珍惜, 要珍惜.....每一天, 每一分, 每一妙.....
不要在做本蛋的事了.....

Chat that does not last

2009-11-20T23:49:00.003+08:00

chatting with you doesn't last like last time
with joke and laughter,
message is plain and stern
no more loving message,
no more telling me what is happen around
it becoming from sweet to bitter
no more good night message from you

Love Bridge is full of cobweb
Paint is fading and droping
lang lang and weeds is growing wildly , covering the whole bridge
water become stagnant,
no more colourful butterflies flying around freely
instead it been replace with brown and big moth....
flower had no longer carrying vibrant colour
it's becoming dull and some are dying to get our nutrient.

it been long you ever call me baby
either in message or by calling
no longer honeymoon
do you know?
every time when i am looking through the message that you sent to me
those wonderful and loving message that will make my day.
hurt me so much.

i feel that i am treated a cold shoulder
a cold that can't be explain by words and action
a cold that is so freezing
a cold without any form of weather change
a cold that wont change water to ice

you have been on msn,
but, there is no lovely message from you again
no miss, no love...
i really need all this to nutrient me

what had happen to us,
it doesn't feel the same anymore
i need you to open up to me
i need you to tell me what is going on

tell me, please don't hide from me....

Blood Blood

2009-11-20T07:26:00.003+08:00

Hum, it a wonderful thursday,
Get to shop with you.
You look really very beautiful with that skirt.
really it does..
will faster go and get the slipper size ..... hehe' i want i want....

Went over to city plaza to shop with her but end out she only manage to get a skirt only, haiz..
shall save more money for her to open her blogshop,
even though i have so many time constraint,
but financially should be able to help out,
DEC, bonus here we go.... yeah....

today have dinner with my god dad,
sat will have my duty,
hope sun we can donate blood together,
it really additive....
some how, i really enjoy donating blood with you....

i should not have done that,
damn it, i really hate my self...
arggggg...

不要偷吃我的零食哦。。。。。哈哈哈哈哈哈

心还是痛的...

2009-11-19T07:23:00.002+08:00

什么事？
i dont know, i didnt recieve you message,
neither any call, i am so desperate for it,
i need a message or a call,
to know you are safe and sound,
not i am paranoid,
i am sure i am not paranoid,
it purely worry....

sometime, i really dont understand is the message for me?
when i read it, my mind will keep on thinking every sec...

riding back home, a long journey cause i always took a route which pass by your house,
so that i am pysically near you,
passing by your school,
always been peeping to the basketball court,
trying to see can i try my luck to spot you,
just wanna look at you,
when is the last time i met you?
sunday isnt it.
when will i be able to see you again, i dont know it myself,

what is our relationship now?
i really need to know?
you called me boyfriend when we having dinner at astro,
are we really one?

我多喜望你别对我那么冷淡.....
我还是一之
爱你的......

Worried~~~

2009-11-19T00:37:00.002+08:00

Our message end at 10:42
till now there is no message from you,
i tried calling for 3 times,
no respond...

let me know, please.....
i am very worried about you.....

mirror image

2009-11-18T10:23:00.002+08:00

this is the way that you feel,
when i didnt message you,
when i didnt tell you what i m doing,
when i am sailing,
when i dont appreciate things around me.

during our msn chat'
i feel so happy' at least i am able to talk to you'

that is all mirror image of how i treat you,
as i sayin my last post, i deserved all this,
should'nt i look in to mirror early ,
if i have done that, everything would'nt be so nasty.

i wanna to hug you to sleep,

i wanna to be able to kiss you good night,

i wanna to kiss you every morning,

i want to see you doing everything,

i wanna to do every small detail things with you

i wanna you to be the most xin fu woman in the world.

and yeah'
i had a new friend called no one

I rather be your friend

2009-11-17T07:12:00.004+08:00

I am going to sail off soon today,
will be back only by wed either night or morning...
but does it matter, since you will not be meeting me,

off and leave has no more value,
4.30 isn't something I am looking forward,
rather it something that I am not looking forward to,
sat and sun is something that just make me daze,
birthday need not to say as you have already mention
that nothing going to happen .

no more lengthy loving night message,
it had already substitute by 2 syllables words,

you asked me, why I sound so sad
I don't know how to reply
guess this is the place that will have all my answer.

no one
no one
no one......

despite saying all this things
I still love you....

call me one more time

2009-11-16T22:13:00.002+08:00

it fading away

it been long ever since you call me "baby"
in every message, I am looking forward to open
I know when I open, it going to disappointing...
but, I will always convince my self,
that you are busy.

Flipping my phone every now and then,
no smses
browsing through my hp,
realise that for the past few weeks,
there is'nt your number inside my recieve list...

I am lonely
very lonely,
maybe that the way I am been punish
for i taken too much things for granted
it really a torture....

no name
no misses
no smses life before
I am just feeling damm emo...
maybe this way, you will feel much happier
maybe this way, you will feel that your life is easier
maybe this way, you will not feel unhappy,
maybe this way, your life is more meaningful

i have no right,
to say..
casue every every things started from me...

......

Sigh

2009-11-16T01:58:00.004+08:00

haiz, i am not inside her Happiness list
hum, seem that she is much more a happy person
with less of my present.

Blog
thoughts that the BF is me, but.......
:(

i know you love me.....:)

sad but happy,
casue i finally get my goodbye kiss from her after 2 week
ok, gotta go to sleep..

P.S: dont eat the whole things at one short hor,
if not 2 kg become 4 kg..
but no worries, cause i will love you even u are a PIG... hehe

Reminder

2009-11-15T09:53:00.002+08:00

Went for Tim Sum with Baby family,
Waaa, the Xia Jiang Ji is damn good la,
Gotta bring my family over to Tok Lok at ECP.

i really didn't know that you hate Jiu Cai,
think i really didn't pay attention on you,
That is why you say that i am insensitive.
Teng Kew baby, even thought you hate to eat but you still eat at my house,
teng kew tneg kew.

Went over to MP(marine prade) to find hair straightener cream for Rachel,
haha, it really been a long time that we went for window shopping at marine parade,
but since we cant find it over at MP, we went over to KSC(katong Shopping Centre),
damn it, i just realise that i went to the wrong car park yesterday... haha,
saw a vintage SINTEL motorbike, damn faded paint work, old school lao K type ... haha, once i am able to steal the photo from my baby, i will post it here,hahaha..

riding to car park
it always the same car park,
it always the same head bending movement,
when passing the height limit,

i just miss holding ur hand
while riding bike
i just miss you disturbing my FATS when sitting as a pillion.
i just miss you sleeping on my bike and knock your head on my helmet.
i just miss you hugging me tight tight on my bike...

Where is my good bye kiss,
where where where......
think is lost inside one corner....
must find and give me ok.....

Marriage Marriage

when will we walk down the aisle,
i need 50 k,
i have to do something about it.....
GANBATEI...

It raining ......

2009-11-14T09:46:00.003+08:00

Drench and wet...

that is'nt a problem...
hehe, i am as strong as a bull, haha

went dinner with baby,
wow, aston food is really not that bad,
haha,even though the queue is kinda of long ,
we are lucky that we didn't had a late dinner,
casue after we finish our dinner, then queue is x3 longer than the queue we are in.

Cute Cute day, 13 Nov..
haha, went shopping at PS, for all the cute cute stuff,
and i had a cute towel , haha, even thought i keep insisting that i should take the hers towel....haha, casue i found it so love that i am using her towel and she is using mine,haha...But , anyway.. thanks baby... haha
chopstick, laptop bag( lucky casue only last pcs left)beautiful "swee",sticky note from precious thoughts,cup lead, towel, bed sheet fitting and some flies.... Hum....

we went over to precious thoughts hoping to find a bear from me to you...

walking all over PS, i really hate PS layout now, why they can change the location of store so fast, one month here another month there... KOAZ...

well, today having brunch with my baby family at east coast, just hope that it wount rain, get to see her again.... hehe

i am jealous, but what should i do..... haiz...

Your temper is quite hot wor,
i like to see you smile more....
i love you.... my love....

excited

2009-11-13T09:19:00.003+08:00

today is the day,
finally I am able to see her,
excited excited

wanted to go winsland conservation house,
but, it under renovation...
haiz, does place really important?
I always think so complicated where it just so simple,
this is why I always spoilt the whole thing....

just hoping today will be fine,
just hope that we will hold hand together,
walk toward our future....

dilemma

2009-11-11T23:38:00.003+08:00

I had so many places for fri dinner,
but i dont know which one to choose from...
well, i shall make up my mind the first thing in the morning...

My Left tump hurts,
arg.... what a clumsy me..

2 More day...YEAH!!!
Hope every things just be fine for us..

I had so much things to learn..
Crane: Operating crane ain't a simple task,
so many hand movement, so many level to push...
argggg, i must learn it ...
i must master it...
JIA YUO YI Qun

Baby, I wannna to tell you how much i Miss you...
I wannna to shout out loud how much i love you...
Jia you ok ....
But dont hurt yourself in your sports..
LOVE.....

2009-11-10T21:22:00.001+08:00

For 3 days,
i haven seen you once,
what are you doing?
it always the question that i am asking my self..
how do you react when you see my message..
i need you....

1 Corinthians 10:13
There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

too quiet

2009-11-09T15:30:00.006+08:00

practically I can throw my handphone away,
it just too quiet,
there is no other function other then my htcphone, cause there is a data sim
, for me to use my rss reader to refresh again and again on your blog, knowing what happen in your life lately,
I need you to flood my phone, my life with all the wonderful messages,
they really make my day, it will keep me smile.
with your cutness and care, my day will be full of energy.

As usual I am excited to meet you , this feeling come ever since I first met you
, but, I am scare too,
I scare I can't make it on time,
I don't want to disappoint you, cause I suddenly need to go for overnight sailing on thursday.
just hoping that every things will just run smoothly and I will be back on fri morning... haiz....
biscally, I just need you in my life.
I really misses you alot, please come back to me.
I am hoping that you are seeing my blog.

do you still love me?
do you miss me?
will it be difficult for you not to sms and call me?
I want to talk to you ,
I don't know the answer.
I want to ask so many question,
I need to see you,
I want to hug you telling you every things is alrite.
I wanna to tuck you to sleep at night,
I want to say good morning to you,
I want to say good night and see you at love bridge.
I want to disturb you when you say u are hungry, and eventually get you your food,
I want to see and hear you saying you love me, telling me that you want to be with me forever.
but, if I were to, will you be turn off by me.

just wanna to hear you saying I love you...

I no longer look forward sat nor sun
neither do I looking forward my off day.
I want to go oversea with you,
I still had 5 days leave, I don't want to take leave sit my self in front of my computer refreshing your blog every now and then. I want to spend time with you, but I need to know if are able to too.
I really don't know what goal do I have, ever since we didn't meet.
I had so much time in the past and why didn't I use it,
when every things is going down hill, I start to regret this and that,
what the use?
fuck, I hate myself.

off day tomorrow what should I do?

bring me to him
make me a better person

2009-11-08T21:20:00.004+08:00

It so sad to see you online but cant chat with you..... as what you said, lets give each sometime to cool down, i respect that.

i just can't wait for fri to come....
so i can see you,
have dinner with you....

went over to ECP for WCD.... Good memories keep flashing on my mind.
i really regret not spending my time with you
Why i always treasure things when i am about to lose it.
i have learn to treasure and love things when things are not bad.

finally i had paint my door, after so so so long, didnt realise that the door paint actually turn from white to yellow already, hum...no more masking tape..
and you must be reading it and saying WOW, finally...haha

well, tomorow will be doing my duty

dan dan just called me,
asking me about jac bike thingy,
casue of her road tax and installment,
haiz, going to be poor poor poor again....
shall set aside some money...
like what you always told me,
i should start saving, casue i had too many IN case situation le...
shall go to sleep le, casue had to wake up at 5am...

night night.....
i miss you, i miss sleepy and of course i miss shaggy.....

p.s: anyway about the catus, well i see the condition of the catus already...
try not to water it too much...think, 2 week water once can le
casue it started to rot from the inside..

2009-11-08T12:24:00.001+08:00

all i need is a hold of your hand again
let me be your love again. Don't give up, cause i know you are still holding on

2009-11-08T09:26:00.005+08:00

i want you to know,
no matter what had happen,
i will always love you,
no matter what.

No matter how you shouted at me,
No matter how you chase me out,
No matter how far you drifted,
No matter what happen,
No matter it past or future..
No matter is near or far..
No matter you are sick,
No matter how you become,
No matter today or tomorrow,
No matter every Hour,Min or Second,
You will be the one who i love.

You will be the only woman that Tan Yi Qun will only love
i shall wait for you,
i shall be there for you,
i shall treasure all the memories,
i shall be the only one who you can rely on,
i shall be the one who support you,
i shall be there to listen to you,
i shall be there one who pick you up if you fall,
i shall be there and i will always be there.....

2009-11-08T08:14:00.003+08:00

were as one babe
for a moment in time
and it seemed everlasting
that you would always be mine
now you want to be free
so I’m letting you fly
cause i know in my heart babe
our love will never dieno!you’ll always be a part of me
i’m a part of you indefinitely
girl, don’t you know you can’t escape me
ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
and we’ll linger on
time can’t erase a feeling this strong
no way you’re never gonna shake me
ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
i ain’t gonna cry no
and i won’t beg you to stay
if you’re determined to leave

i will not stand in your way
but inevitably you’ll be back again
cause ya know in your heart babe
our love will never end no
you’ll always be a part of me
i’m part of you indefinitely
don’t you know you can’t escape me
ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
and we’ll linger on
time can’t erase a feeling this strong
no way you’re never gonna shake me
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby

i know that you’ll be back babe

when your days and your nights get a little bit colder ooohhh
i know that,you’ll be right back, baby
oh, baby believe me it’s only a matter of time
of time

you’ll always be a part of me (oooohhhh)
i’m part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
don’t you know you can’t escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby
and we’ll linger on (and we will linger on)
time cant erase a feeling this strong (ohhhh)
no way you’re never gonna shake me (oh baby)
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby

you’ll always be a part of me (yeah yeah oooohhhh)
i’m part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
boy don’t you know you can’t escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby (no no)
and we’ll linger on (you and I will always be)
time cant erase a feeling this strong
no way you’re never gonna shake me (you & I)
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby (you & I)

you and i will always be
no way your never gonna shake me
no way your never gonna shake me
you and i will always be

2009-11-08T00:48:00.003+08:00

i will still be your sand
i will never let go...
casue u are my every thing...

2009-11-07T18:29:00.003+08:00

There is so much thoughts running through my mind
regret doing every things that make you sad....
not being able to eat well,
cant sleep well,
ok, i am falling sick... that what i am feeling now..

Regret
not company you to your fav lecture
not knowing so much of you
not talking to you and understand you
not sharing my past with you
not giving you ideal when you are shopping
not able to provide you what you need
not showing how much i love you
not showing my present when i am with you
being a BIG fat pig, who sleep in movie ,talking with you
always showing you my tired face
not playing ur fav sport with you
not by your side when u need me the most
not being able to be by your side when you are studying
for making you so lonely
for making you so angry
so many many many things

i just hope every things will be fine after 2 weeks
hope you are still holding on.

Please tell me, i am always here to listen to you, i promise.
i know there are somethings that are troubling you..

at least this is the only place that i am able to tell you how i feel
casue, i dont want you to feel frustrated when i sms or call you....

i am just so scared of losing you...

2009-11-07T16:59:00.001+08:00

I never felt so lonely before,
I don't know what was happening,
wondering are you drifting away for me?
tell me about it.....

2009-11-07T02:24:00.005+08:00

awaiting for smses once i reach the harbour,
but, once i reach out my phone,
to my saddness no smses.

baby, i misses you alot.
not jealousy but truefully.
how is my baby for the past 4 day?
i just wanna hug you to sleep...

2009-11-03T16:21:00.003+08:00

Sunday Routine (SR)

Nthing BUt a Normal SR

What NEXT?

2009-11-02T20:26:00.002+08:00

opppsssss, my baby is sleeping so soundly while hugging SHAGGY....
haha, my fault actually,Make her wait for more than 2 hours, SORRY bABY.... think my love will just wake up in the middle of the night, searching for food ,haha , PIG ... hehe

Well, i had a BALU KU on my head thanks the BEER,arg, i am not drinking but thank to the magic of mother nature FOG, difference in temp fog up my glasses.

Sometime i just dont understand some ppl, cant help even a thing, why are there human who is so so so so lazy.... arg...... i simply just fucking hate them.....
While if my baby is reading my blog , she must be smiling and say " you also know,haha, look at the mirror"

2009-10-30T00:08:00.003+08:00

YEAH,Happy 19 month ....
wow, Time flies .... 19 month already.....
we had been through thick and thin for this 19 month...
may our love always stay strong....always
i love you....... baby......
you are the one and only in my life,
Thank you for entering in to my life...
you had lighten it up with alot alot of colourful bulb,
brighten me up and shine my way through
be my bulb and i will always be your Electricity..
Giving you power for your rest of ur life....\

And YES, i am poor again....
After paying my road tax and bike insurance
i am legally BROKE.....
still have to borrow money from Baby...
for jac bike and the money i owe chak....
hum ...hum....hum..
what else can i say,
just cant wait for bonus and MAC....
PLEASE I AM TOTALLY BROKE......

2009-10-25T21:07:00.000+08:00

hum...
calm sea and bright sun shine again

hump, her reaction actually shock me,
thought she will scream at me,
thought she will just ignore me totally,
thought she will say, Why are you here,

but every things just so different,
must treasure this chance that she had given to me,
hum,can't wait to play elmo light sabare with her after i collect my no.3
anyway, i love you my loveee, thank you so much.....

BIKE
there is road tax,insurance and inspection.
how do i manage to get it all done by 6 nov, haiz, guess have to pray for off
after my duty so that i can get it all done.
700+ for insurance
65+ for road tax
25+ for inspection
haiz, this month really have to eat bread le,
sorry, baby, make you so worry that i have no money to eat,
i am totally sorry, didnt know that there is so many things happening around...

2009-10-25T16:43:00.003+08:00

Now i have been BLOCK
my heart had been BLOCK
My soul had been BLOCK
What is it going to be BLOCK..next.....

i am sorry....
what can i do other then saying ....sorry
what will happen if i go inside your ROOM
what will happen if i enter to ur HSE...
what will happen , if i cant convince you ,
what will happen, what will happen,
i really dunno what will happen.

what should i do,
CONFUSE CONFUSE CONFUSE CONFUSE...
PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE
TELL ME WHAT TO DO.......

PLEASE!!!!!!

2009-10-23T00:45:00.003+08:00

Tears Rolling Down my Cheek....
i have nthing to say...
i am a failure.....
Everyword you said ...
make my heartach...
i know you wanted to tell me so much about ur meeting and ur training..
but you hesitate and say everything is alright....
i am dumb.....

why can i do what i had said to you.....
what have i contribute to us.
why must i blog when i am sad,
why cant i blog when i am happy with you,
keep all the happy moment with you....
so much why? and i didnt work out to find the answer....

2009-10-22T17:26:00.003+08:00

Confuse

I am always confuse about what to do now and next...
why can't it be easy for me,
to understand what to do now and later...
why do i need to care about my ego in front of my love,
when i can actually tell her how i feel straight,
instead of arguing and lead to quarrel,
giving a chance to destroy the relation.
why cant i just give in like how she give in to me,
instead of understand her very well,
i need to rely on the internet(blog),
to know how she feel.

Going oversea to work,
is actually a torture to her,
going off for 14 days,
no one there to comfort her,talk to her,hug her to sleep.
yet, she is so understanding to me,
helping me to pack my stuff ,remind me what have i miss out.
with no words of complaining.
Get my laptop making her travel to and fro,
from west to south, south to west then west to east again.
my heart feel so sore when i know of that ...
i really hate myself, why can't i dote her as much she dote me,
again, no compliant from her....

Going out,
i am always the one who can't make up my mind,
at the end she will always be the one to plan,
other then when we are not together,
i can plan and make her so wonderful like a princess,
what had happen to me.

i should not make her suffer anymore,
she must be a most xin fu Woman on earth
and not the most SAD woman on earth,
how i want her to be my wife,
but, i dont have and $$ to...
i cant give her security already,
i should give her more care and concern...
haiz, i am confuse,
but for sure ,
i know I REALLY LOVE HER....alot
i mean really alot.....

I am VERRRRRRY POOORRRRRRR....

can that person please do something please...
They are trying very hard to earn money already.
you are old enough to support yourself,
dont aim too high when u cant even go half the way,

I need money to pay for internet, televison and telephone
i need money to pay my own handphone bill
i need money for my bike road tax, insurance and inspection,
but i only have 1,100 only,
after deducting i only have less then 100 dollar left.
please do something please,
i want o save up i want to.,.....
please help and not make a burden ....
i am begging you...

2009-09-13T11:27:00.000+08:00

Simply Just Love You

Going for BBQ,
Riding Bike Together,
Drinking my Fav Drink "White Chocolate Dream From Coffee Bean"
Playing Game,(really appreciate it my love)
Stroll to jurong Point,

Wow.....
I really wish every day is like this,
I simply just love you,
LOVE LOVE

2009-08-30T15:30:00.001+08:00

30th of this month

another marking for our love....

Simply just love you my love.....

2009-08-28T06:11:00.002+08:00

Finally~

i manage to tell her....
the big rock finally lift off from my heart,
sorry, baby, i keep you in the dark...
i also dunno why, i did it...
but, sorry & thank you my love....

hum, no more fear of this and that..
why am i so scare,
why cant i be like you,
share everything together...
now i learn my lesson....

woooo,
my knee is killing me,
going to see docter to treat it,
haiz~~

2009-08-16T14:40:00.000+08:00

Thank you Baby,
for staying beside me ....

hum, finally ... we had more things to talk about...
we can discuss things and tell each other what happen ...
i have so much things to tell you baby...

hum, didnt know that teacher day is coming ...
just receive a MSN greeting from one of my student from camp...
while i am working as a camp instructor ,which is like 2 yrs ago.
here is the mesage:

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:24 PM):
hello

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:25 PM):
i know that you might wonder who am i and i'm nt surprise !!
I'm Rena Yeo , once during secondary 2 .. i had attend your camp .. which is confidence camp

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:26 PM):
i nv forgotten abt u teaching me a lesson , and i've always regard you and your partner my teacher ..
I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:28 PM):

u had taught me a precious lesson abt having self confidence ~~
i remember u , told me off when i didn't dare to walk on a log without support , only u and a rope holding on to me ..

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:29 PM):
i was there screaming of i wanted to give up ..
and u told me that i did not even try and i was there screaming i dun wan or watever ..

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:30 PM):
although , at that point of time , i was really pissed off bt i did not make any comment bt to walk away for another station ..
it was a game that i nd to climb onto the top of a standing log , hop off it and grab a stick hanging there ..

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:31 PM):
when i reached the top , i once thought of giving up but suddenly ur words was ringing through my head ..
and it give me the courage of not giving up as i wanted to prove to u that i can do it !!

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:32 PM):
and i did , i make it to the last althought i did not able to grab the stick .. when i went back happily to tell u
but u still seem to be pissed off by my action and i think u misunderstood my meaning ..
bt thats not important ..

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:33 PM):
ALL I WANT TO SAY IS THANK YOU !! FOR HELPING ME TO BUILD UP MY CONFIDENCE AND TEACHING ME NOT TO GIVE UP ~~

I'm not going to give up .. nt now !! [http://ww said (7/27/2009 at 4:34 PM):
I'LL NEVER FORGET YOUR THIS PRECIOUS LESSON .. P.S : ALTHOUGH SOMETIME I STILL WOULD GIVE UP BUT U INDEED CHANGE MY LIFE ..
ALTHOUGH IS A BIT EARLY BUT ANYWAY , HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY ~~

2009-08-10T10:40:00.002+08:00

i have so many many many things to tell you
but will it be let out....

i reallly love you,
i really do.....
but, what happen to us,
haiz........

just hope that we can make it trought
i really have no ideal ....
sigh....

2009-08-05T02:59:00.000+08:00

oh no oh no
i cant imagine that i can forget when we actually get together.....
if i were her, i will also get angry and damn sad..
that is why, i cant sleep......

i ...... haiz...... no words can desrible the feeling now....

hum,
back to work, after a week long break....
work is piling up,
manage to clear up somestuff before some ********
lucky, got my baby.... who support me ,
if not i think i will actually break down....
you are the only things that drive me...

2009-08-03T17:36:00.000+08:00

Wooooo, Came back from our diving trip already...
hehe, we are certify Recreational Diver le....
Though we can only dive up to 18 meter...haha
Get to see so so so so many ..... Fishes and corals

i still cant believe that i am actually diving in to the sea....
cause inside,it really like a Big Aquarium i mean very very BIG....

2009-07-28T06:43:00.002+08:00

What have i done again ......

I reallly hate myself,
why can't i control of what to say,
why can't i just give in ,other then trying to reason

baby, i am sorry...

PS: dont know will you read my blog, but
today you can come for the pool session.
wed can take the threoy test.

really need need you... love love baby....

2009-07-18T23:05:00.003+08:00

Yeeppiiiiii....

My baby is coming back from Thailand, hehehe,
going to touch down around 0030 tomorrow morning.....
Going to make her tell me lots of funny things that happen over at Thailand..
hehe....

Just got a new phone, HTC snap, just simply love it... of course i love my baby more....
hehe...... a good high end non camera phone which is somethings just what i need....
going to go off to fetch my baby le... ......

2009-07-15T20:29:00.003+08:00

wee~~~

just came back from sailing..

yeah, sat is coming , my baby is coming back from thailand
she should be lugging big and small bag of things she brought from thailaind....

cant book my car lesson , very sad, 7 aug is reaching very very very soon,
and i haven get in to the circuit yet, still have a long way to go....

Somehow, many things is troubling me...
so wish i can say out, but but but....
haiz.........

2009-07-07T17:20:00.002+08:00

Finally, i am back to singapore
yeah, finally can see me baby and family...

well, baby, thank you for accepting me in your life.. i really appreciate it...
thank you love love

2009-06-14T16:23:00.005+08:00

Finally,
He rest in peace....

He no longer had to suffer....
i will always remember you ....
AH GONG AH MA.....

thanks peilee for being there,
when he is about to go....
when at his funeral
when cremation..thn
when collecting his ash....

thanks you baby, for waking up early in the morning, sleeping late at night..
to wash my family clothes cooking breakfast for me...
being there for me when i really need you the most... thanks you baby.....
i LOVE YOU

2009-06-08T22:44:00.002+08:00

Feeling very down...

Grandpa hospitalise...
cant do anythings....
working stress...
sometime i just choose not to talk.....

ARGGGG......change of location..
thanks to some idiot...
who cant control their own urge....
who is old enough...
arg...... DAMNn.... it.....

walking around jurong point spend ,3 hours window shopping at the basement even when my culf get "KUI GOON" yesterday night....

gadget,games ,wired things....reading books......
wa, the technology is too advance wor...

** is not that i dont want to tell you i reach early**

i dont kow why , sometime i really dont know what to say....

haiz..... headach....

2009-06-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

ONE NEW MESSAGE FOR YOU....

2009-05-28T03:19:00.002+08:00

Finally~~ i am back from 2 days sailing,
damn tired...
But....

I am so excited that my baby is coming from holiday,
yeah....
She is like complaining that the food is not better then the one that i cook and bought for her.... haha....

hehe, yeah yeah yeah,

"yes baby, i will take care of my self...
have already message you"

Cant wait to see you..

2009-05-25T05:24:00.001+08:00

Off to work~~~

Cant sleep, tossing here and there....

MIssing her....

2009-05-24T23:22:00.003+08:00

read a book and get this quote
"The first trick to happiness is to appreciated what we already got"
-Happiness Now-

Hum, true, Not many people will appreciate what they already got,instead they keep on complain this and that....
Learn to appreciate things around you... then you will be happy...

I have started to appreciate things around me , which include my family , my GF and my friends...Without them , i dont think i will be here typing this Post...
Thank you guys, i know that it hard to be with me, sorry for being so stubborn and inconsiderate at time....

"second day ,i am like losing someone i feel so lonely...,
i totally understand how you feel when i am oversea....,
staying at home ,here in singapore will feel so different
I miss you" Drop me a message"

2009-05-23T23:26:00.001+08:00

DAMMMMMMMM IT!!!!!

My $80 Dollar samsung Phone is spoilt,
it barely less then 3 month, ARGGGGGGGGG

gOTTA Sent for repair....
GOD DAMN IT....

2009-05-23T23:20:00.002+08:00

wooo.....

my baby should be playing game and chit chatting with her gals...
must enjoy ok?

.....Missing my baby so much already....
Dunno will she be reading my blog over at there..
hum, must upload pic let me see see see ok ????

Love love....

2009-05-22T13:17:00.003+08:00

Just came back from my fire fighting training,
Wa, it so so so long ago when i last had my FF training....

Went over to Chong Pang Market to have our lunch,
Memories keep flashing back,
There is where i and her went for our Breakfast,lunch and Dinner....
I miss her so much......

2009-05-22T06:16:00.003+08:00

i am real damn stupid

now i understand, why u said i dont care and understand you.....
i am really disappointed with myself , i really disappoint you....
i totally understand how can i lose you , who is so dearly and important to me....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....
i hate myself.....

2009-05-22T01:09:00.002+08:00

Who knows how am i feeling now......